Vent

Christmas is so much fucking stress, annoying as fuck and a perfect way to make me feel like shit... just get it over with already

Thought i would feel better after talking things thru, but it just feels worse, like i did it the wrong way. She was too nice and understanding. IM SUCH AN ASSHOLE for letting it go on for as long as i did... Im an idiot for thinking feelings would develop that were never there. I should have taken the advice that was given to me in the first place, but others were like just go for it and see where it leads... i wish i didnt listen to them just because i didnt want to be alone... But tbh i think i did it just because i know i couldnt be with the one who i actually wanted to be with. WHATS WRONG WITH ME