How to deal with Depression

Get more depressed and keep yourself in a constant state of depression and challenge yourself. If the next day doesn't kill you or you don't kill others then you have reached the state of pure nothingness. A state of numbness. Like the hulk you don't control the depression you are the depression. "I'm always angry" turns into "I'm always depressed". Then you can achieve muso tensei and kill all that has ever wronged you or cure blindness.

How do I deal with my depression? I write, and write, and write and just when I think my hand is about to fall off because I've written so much, I write some more. I've tried bottling it all up inside but alas that didn't work and it only made it worse. I even tried denying the fact that I was even depressed in the first place. Then when I finally did acknowledge and accept the fact that it was apart of me, I told my closet family members who responded with the worst thing possible. "You're not depressed. You have nothing to be depressed about. You've got everything you could ever possibly want. A family that loves you. Friends. You're doing great in school. You have a roof over your head, and food in your belly. What's left to be depressed about?" What is left to be depressed about? The fact that though I was doing well in school I still felt unfulfilled in life? The fact that I felt I was alone in the world without anyone that would ever truly understand the way that I felt? The fact that I've got anxiety that is SO BAD that I practically shut down at the idea of hanging out with friends that I've known for years? But that was years ago and a lot has changed. Like I said I've started writing again. Which was something that I really loved to do but when the year 2012 rolled around, I just kind of stopped. I lost all interest in it and didn't want to do it anymore. I've picked up drawing. Albeit I'm not good at it. At all. But it's a hobby that I enjoy so very much. On top of all that I've began to read books again and music keeps me sane. I still have days where I feel down and out on luck, but those days are far and few in between.