Complaints/Struggles

Because of how I was raised, I hate that I have to hide around my family and co-workers of my love for anime. Some people are fearless for showing their true interest, but I still struggle.

But Rein, male birds and other animals do go through the song and dance to get a female's attention. It's just that we don't always understand what they're actually doing. For a long time we didn't understand where these designs came from on the ocean floor... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p1PID91sEW8

I still struggle hiding the fact I watch anime even playing magic the gathering from people I know and at work, you know I can't be in a smoke shack where 50 guys are talking about their trucks and tools or the games when all I did last night was watch anime hahaha

Does anyone just get random bouts of feeling really down I am not depressed or bi-polar but I feel really down sometimes and the only time I am happy is with a good anime or talking to a certain girl, Just me?

College, my course is sooo complex that 99.99% of the people wants to drop out. http://static.fjcdn.com/gifs/My+college+life+in+a+nutshell+don+t+have+source+for_8a9f1c_4878778.gif

I cannot stand that 95% of everyone I meet in life cannot hold a decent conversation, I despise that because I try and be kind, people wonder to themselves what is this guy trying to get? I cannot stand the conditions of my town, last night I went for a 2AM walk to the store and ended up buying some homeless folk coffee and soda and such, its a shame homelessness is still an issue in this "Modern World" I cannot stand the fact that right now since I have started typing this hundreds of children have starved to death, and I cannot figure any way to really help them. I cannot stand being a Diabetic I cannot stand that I broke my neck a couple years back and still feel the pain. I cannot stand that one of my best friends was killed by a hit and run drunk driver and he will never see justice

Well i guess ill share my stuggles and such, it seems like im struggling to stay happy like truely happy. Ive always had issues with happiness and emotions and all of that like feeling them, which isnt much fun to be honest with my nightmares. But it seems like im seeing myself struggling more so with just being alone in a way yea i have family and and such but its not fun being alone and only having family and a few irl friends when what i want is someone i can cherrish that isnt family or friends but someone precious to me, yea ill have that eventually just not much fun seeing all my friends and people who wasnt nice to me in school and such ahead of me so thats kinda my struggle. And complaints not so much

There's just this really annoying guy in my college that is way too full of himself and spams stuff like dead dog gifs and pics on our IT department discord (yeah we have a discord for everybody that took an IT related course.) And he also keeps insulting me out of no where. Like calling me a whore and shit all the time. Ugh. Not sure if it's because I'm the only girl on there or that he really disgusts females or sth.