Random thoughts...

Rice from the Asian Market: I wash it maybe 4-5 times Rice from a German brand: no need to wash it

I will forever have respect for my fellow brothers in arms. Just seeing how dudes come back from deployment and they arent the same anymore. That shit is real, you will have guys who can walk in a room and look for any exits possible as just a subconscious thing. They go there have their survival switch flipped and cant flip it off. Then they suffer at work, suffer at home, lose joy in the things they love. I can relate to some of that after mine but i could never experience what they have. They actually had combat my biggest threat was being blown up by missles they got shot at, sniped, have mortars hit inches from them. Thats why anyone who disrespects this country or them i wont tolerate it. "All give some, some give all"

@hell_hound7 That sounds serious. I hope your fellows are okay.

@elhaym yeah like i didnt realize it until now but there are ALOT of people who are like this. Im seeing more and more of it now that i work with actual mental health in the clinic. These guys are messed up. I kinda feel that no one really gets it unless they were there. For me it's easier to tell people that my deployment was ok....when really it was the worst thing i have ever experienced to this date.

I also feel like i cant actually seek help for it, because i dont want to affect my career. Im hoping this is the last time i ever have to deploy...but im only 3 years in and its possible anything can happen and they send me back.