What to do when you're anxious and depressed?

And hmm, I see. There's some people at school that help people with problems, but I don't really trust them, as for the doc, I'm not sure. But if I'd tell my mom something is wrong with me and I'd want to talk with someone else before I tell her, she would accept it. But still, I'm afraid to tell strangers about my problems. :/

So from what I gathered; you seem to have a good sense of optimism in the way you described what made you happy. So do you think it's a sense of variety that makes you feel like you're in a rut? As if nothing is different and you're basically just reliving the same day? Or do you like what you do, and it's more along the lines that other people make you feel as if your lifestyle choice is incorrect?

Hmm, it really depends. At some point, I like what I do, at some point I don't. Doing the same thing everyday will get boring eventually. The reason behind my depression is probably people judging me for being asian, and my past relationships. They truly took away some parts of me, such as my self confidence and a lot of my optimism, and most of all, my happiness.

And about locking myself in a room, I kinda already do that and my depression seems to be kinda chronic because it has never really gotten any less.

Well I guess for me crying and hugging a teddy bear works After u cry you feel a lot better, it is like a weight of ur shoulders

When i get anxious i do a couple of things. If i'm home i play video games to calm me down and clear my mind. If i'm out then i'll keep myself engaged in conversation or vent if i'm around close friends. This isn't something that happens often to me, but these are things that have helped in the past.

I know exactly what you mean Sachi - I've had this depression and anxiety shite for something like 5/6 years now and it's really is a nasty horrible feeling day in, day out. Especially with the whole future and ex thing (ESPECIALLY upset about the whole ex thing to this day) - that gets to me all the time. But the things that really keep me going is working hard and getting the recognition that I do a good job, even if I didn't do all that great at something. That's one of the reasons though, sometimes it's about the little things that make me smile, whether it's watching a funny video on Youtube, doing something spontaneously awesome on a video game (Which has been happening a lot for me ever since I got Fallout 4 for my birthday last week :D). From what I learned, it's all about trying to reframe the situation you're in - trying to take your focus off what's going poorly for you and trying to put that focus on the positives of your situation. Like for me, sure my dad does full-time work, my mom is ill and disabled, other people in the house don't do anything useful and I'm left almost on my own to do the housework; stuff like cooking, cleaning, shopping and I do part-time work on top of that which leaves very little free time to myself - I probably only get me time on Saturdays :I But I can see the positive side of my situation that I've become really independent despite my issues and disabilities and I can take joy in actually getting jobs done myself to have a clean house and that I can prepare meals that people can enjoy (Still not a great cook but I'm getting there slowly XD) and doing it almost on my own just shows I can do that kind of stuff and I reckon I do it pretty well o/ It's little stuff like that, that keeps me going. There's some truth to the whole "suck it up" response, you have to "just do it" as Nike would say. It is hard, very hard but once you have that momentum going gradually - from small things and working your way up to the big stuff, you'll find you're on a steady road to getting better. Just make sure you celebrate every little victory - even if it's as tiny as getting out of bed by a certain time or doing a little bit of cleaning up. You can't fail at the little things and thinking like that is a big confidence boost, when you work your way up and fail at something, don't get down on yourself - just look at it as a lesson to get better and assess how you can improve and stick to trying to improve until you succeed. It's tough and you might feel like giving up but you just need to stick to it, to keep trying o/ I know this is a big comment from me but this kind of topic is near and dear to me, but if you ever find yourself really starting to crumble Sachi - tell someone. Someone you can trust, a member of your family, a really great friend or maybe even a therapist or whatever. Just having someone to talk to and trust, someone who understands is wonderful on its own and it is important to let it out instead of bottling it up. Even if it's just to vent about how shit things are, that helps so much - you feel like you can spill your emotions onto someone who you know can catch them for you and you feel so much better because of that. But of course, different things work for different people when it comes to depression and anxiety but just try plenty of different things and see what works and what makes you feel better about yourself and your situation and just keep trying to do better as much as you possibly and if things become overwhelming, just do whatever makes you feel better about things until you feel like you're ready to try again. You seem like a wonderful person Sachi and I think you can do just fine if you keep trying and stick to it - just remember to love yourself every step of the way o/

Woah, I appreciate all of the advice, guys! And @InfernalMonsoon, your comment moved me entirely. Actually, it makes me feel kinda happy. But.. looking at myself, with the lack of motivation I have, I'm not sure if I'd be able to do it, because, honestly, I'm so afraid to the point I'm scared to put effort into something. The only thing I got out of it was betrayal.. I'm not sure if I'm ready to be betrayed once again. Truly though, thanks for your kind words, I appreciate it. Same goes for the others, though! Thank you so much. <3