I can't seem to let anybody get close to me

I think it's sad not being able to trust anyone. Either way, the first step to getting over fear of intimacy is admitting it. Then, just like with depression, it's all working on ones self esteem and relationships with others. Ofc, it's easier said than done, but if one doesn't give people a chance then one will always end up alone. We will always get hurt, always, and we will also always hurt others no matter what. The choice we have to make is to decide who it is worth getting hurt for.

I think is normal for you to feel this way. Who wouldn't want to build a wall to keep the Titan off from you. But no matter how strong your wall, eventually someone can break it just like a colossal Titan. Make sure build a stronger one and when someone manage to break it, then you can find what you look for.

^ Nice Attack on Titan refrence, haha. Who knew you can relate social and romantic issues to such a gory anime? Maybe you're right, Lana. Maybe because I didn't have a father figure most my life it has caused some intimacy issues...but then again I have a whole lot of life problems that could have contributed to it, like a variety assortment box of screwed up chocolates. It's like I'm sitting in a castle I built for myself and destroyed the bridges that allow me to really connect with others. It's allowed me to have success after success in my life with no really depressing times, but at the end of the day, I'm always left by myself. It's just so hard to motivate myself to do something I know is going to cause me pain again. Maybe it's just a matter of finding the right person.