My heart and brain are arguing (u_u)

I've been in this exact situation. First one was a Highschool sweetheart, 2nd was a partygirl, 3rd... well fun as that girl was, eventually I realized she was just using me and she was a junkie... Anyway, yeah that pain can be channeled into rage for a bit, but you'll never stop thinking about those people and it will take years before being around them doesn't f*** you up inside. But with every relationship like that it gets a bit easier to deal with the feeling of betrayal. Most of the time I'm emotionally numb. When love sneaks up on me I know it right away because I can't control it. Sometimes it's easier to give in and go for it. Ride the waves and if you crash at least it's not the end of the world.

Try to value the experience and keep on trying. It's not always easy to get the positive out of sth but in the end you'll get the reward in becoming hopeful again. Think about the good times and remember yourself what you liked about the persons and the relationships. Don't give up! :)

I understand what you have been throuh. Ive been in that place for 4 years now. But iit doesnt stop me from finding someone now. I know I want to be with someone so im not lonly ill take my past mistakes and help with my next relationship when I do get one. im in no rush ive got all the time in the world. Take it step bye step.

@ yaasshat..i ♡ your comment. I wrote it down and will have it where I can read it each and every day. Relationships are wonderful ...they can make you dream big but also make you fall hard :(