My Soul

They say you don't find love, love finds you but I'm tired of waiting so I've been searching for you for as long as I can remember. I go to parties, clubs, malls, stores, cities, concerts, driving around for no reason hoping for something to happen and I still haven't found you. I spend long hour's online going through hundreds of websites hoping I will find you but I haven't and everyday gets harder the whole in my chest gets bigger. I'm drowning in my own tears and walk around wearing a fake smile and no one seems to notice. If my soul had a voice it would be screaming. When I'm with friends I laugh make jokes and makes me forget about my problems for a few hours but when I'm at home alone it hits me... that feeling. At night I lay on my bed and stare at my ceiling stretch out my arm as if trying to reach something that's unreachable wondering if you're out there doing the same thing, feeling what I feel that feeling of being surrounded by people yet feeling alone. I know it hurts and I want to pull you out of that feeling of drowning. They say there's no such thing as a soul mate but that's bullshit I know there is and how do I know? because I'm in love with someone I've never met. I believe in a past life you and I were in love and I will find you even ... even if it takes this life time or ... the next one as many as it takes but I will find you and when I do ... I won't let go I love you