We could be friends perhaps?

Hmm cant argue with yu there hes speaking from the heart but why do you say you lack? Do you just choose not to go out due to past experinces? Or something else?

A combination of both I do go out but as for talking to others it is rather hard for me too do so until I get to know them. I am usually pretty quite unless around like minded people even then it takes me time to warm up to those. Being online though is much more different I dont have to worry about stuttering or anything like that. From what I can tell most of the shyness I have sticks to people I do not know well or do not fit in with me. Being able to get to know a person online allows me to feel more comfortable and then if we do talk on cam or directly its more easier for me to do.

Hmm could be that your not good with face to face(sry if i sound rude) but it could be that you find it easier to avoid them online rather then having a chance to probly see them on the pass by

Well, it is difficult to say I have many people I can enjoy conversing with and deeply. My friendship base are hollow seeming people I barely talk to and see every so often. Its perhaps that I wish to have goofy cherish-able friendships. That it has never been something I had. Which, is more than likely my own fault, it is hard for me to be friends with people when i always seem to have some bizarre thing happening in my life that I don't wish to bother someone else with.

Oh its more of me simply dealing with quite a few past issues that I had in life thanks to my upbringing. Thanks for talking to me about it though good to see other sides of what people think^^ Its a part of me now one that I have come to accept I do have my ways of coping with the issue though and working on making myself more able to do so. That seems like a method of self reliance perhaps you have been brought up in life with doing things yourself always not sure thats just a wild guess on that.

See it is always a struggle to accept what is understood. It is understood that you will probably get diabeetus when you eat a whole tub of icecream but, you neglect the understanding and eat it anyway. Not accepting the truth. This is applied to alot of my life. This is not with ill intent it is just emotional masking of my logic center. Trust me. Trying to be a decent human is very difficult.Though, if you attempt to it is a start. I guess i'm just attempting to enrich my existence so that, I can fully care about people and love them without being a big horrible mess.

@Yu----Well thats understandable but like evolution we ourselves have to evolve from where we started yea its hard but if we dont then we always be that fish in the pond hoping to walk i wouldnt say try real fast taking steps is always good

@megotit---well every person has theyr special way of dealing with things some choose to ignore some dont others prefer to cuddle themselves with something or what will cuddle them we may want to be better or do better or evem wish to get rid of something to be better but no matter what we are humans the most complicated machine we know in life which means at the turn of a hat we can change or we cant and just accept it but its never ok to do it alone finding that person(s) to help you along the way either through or friendship is one of the main reason we keep going its hard yes but nothing is ever easy always keep smiling to find the someone/friend that has the same vibe as you it may happen in a minute or may happen in a few years or longer but never give up on it and always accept who and how you are cuz if you dont how will find others to accept it too??

Sooooo...to clarify...are you looking to attempt to form meaningful relationships on here? Or is it just a general statement you're hoping to apply to your life in general? I've been fortunate to have some really good friendships that continue to endure despite being far apart (Big life events 'tend to move people to other parts of the globe). Mego, I wouldn't want you to refer to yourself as a horrible mess, we all have our own stories and experiences. Take it slow. Just talk to people casually first. We're like Onions, we have layers! :D