A bit about myself and why I cant seem to date.

Well this is going to be odd and a bit different. Though there seems to be problems with me dating. No one here should really know to much about me but you all are about to find out a little bit if you care to read all of this. So every girl I have met seems to misunderstand that I rather be friends first. Then if things go well I will think about dating. I have no intent of one night stands nor do I care for sleeping around. I dont want friends with benefits nor do I want a random girlfriend. I am 24 years old and I have done allot in my life. I served in the USMC and went on two combat deployments. I have worked PPS (body guard) and done plenty of high profile contracts. I drift professionally and am working on a full sponsorship with monster (red bull is tempting). I as well am working on my Pro lic for boxing. I work at two car shops. Apart from that I am currently working on getting my real estate license. I travel alot between NY, VA, FL alot and plan to buy a house in FL. I am currently renting a place in NY. I work hard and am normally broke due to everything I am doing atm costing money to make it. It seems others think my life is a cake walk. That me having a fan base of over 180k means I make money or that I am always partying. I work hard at everything I do. I refuse to give up and I work 6 - 18 hours a day. I am currently working on throwing events to increase my fan base for drifting. The projected numbers is well over 800k by mid DEC. Though this requires travel, events, party's and meetings. Its hard to find someone who can keep up. That can understand that I watch anime in my down time due to it being an exit from real life for me. I go to cons when they are in the area of an even I am going to. Its a break away from the normal pace of things. I love every anime and think about story plot and the char dev. I pref to watch anime that can make me smile and pull me into a world different from my own. Due to served in the USMC I have some personal problems. From PTSD to TBI and the big one night terrors. I am full of problems but I hide them well. I am the type of guy who is a brick wall to everyone around me but the one I let into my life I try to show my colors to. It seems every time I have done that it pushes them away. I guess they fall for a different guy lol. I am not one to judge nor do I bother with minor things. Some times girls know or find out a box and want me to fight for them. Hey dumb bitch I fucking do it as a sport not for you. I mean I dont care that you where in a mini skirt and he flirted with you and you flirted with him. Thats on you and I dont think I should or want to be dating you now. The big one is others seem to like me for all the wrong reasons. Though what I have come to learn is others who watch anime have problems comparable to mine. They dont judge nor do they worry about the small things. So what are your guy's thoughts on everything?

Dude you were in the USMC. oh man, you should not have gone. You have my Symp, and thanks for serving. Seriously, I really feal for you there. As for finding someone, you are not alone. So stay strong, you will find some one.

It sounds like your life at the moment is very hectic and i wish i had as much going for me as you do but it seems to me you've already answered your own problem. A bit about myself and why I cant seem to date - Its hard to find someone who can keep up That's not to say don't do what you love it's just that in order to have the type of relationship you're looking for, I'd imagine you need the time + stability of some kind and if you're travelling a lot, it doesn't sound like you have either. I hope that was constructive and didn't come off as an attack, just giving you my view on it.

I think you've really done well in your life and seem to be good at setting up goals for yourself in the hopes of doing big things in life. I really admire that because a lot of people have no idea what they really want or even know what direction their life is taking them. That being said, in terms of relationships, I think your position is not uncommon. It's incredibly hard to be open about yourself and the issues you face especially when you are required to act professional due to your lifestyle and work ethics. And, I totally understand that because, although I never did something such as serving, I have been plagued with a severe case of dysthymia (one of the worst kinds of depression) since a kid and I've had to struggle with overcoming that my whole life. I think the biggest thing if you're worried about relationship is that things fall in place naturally and that you just need to be honest with yourself and your friends. It may be hard to open up but I think once you're able to be open more about yourself with some close friends or even going to a therapist it'll help with how you deal with these feelings. It also sounds like the people you meet may not match you on an emotional/intellectual level and that's why you never are able to feel that connection because the people are looking for something a little more casual. I'm sure you'll meet someone who you connect with on a deeper level and feel that natural comfort by being around them. You'll find someone, it may take some time, but just remember love comes in the most unexpected ways and times.

Sorry for late reply iv been out of town.... who woulda thunk it? @joseph87mar I am not sure completely what you mean but thank you for keep my head up. @Da_uman Its never to late to start. I started younger but the bigger stuff dint really start/kickoff till I was about 22. You are prob right about the stability part though. So I dont take it as an attack if anything I guess thats the big one I am missing. @toe I feel you on the depression part and am familiar with the term Dysthymia. If you ever want some one to shoot the shit with I am here. Though my responses may take some time. as well I will keep in mind your input. Though with the comfortable part. I will have the inability for the rest of my life to open up to someone fully. It clicks in with my PTSD.