ok so I'm at the bar

And drinking just numbs the pain. I don't like it, But its better than having a panic attack/seizure because of fear. I only really go drinking maybe once a week. And I don't get wasted unless im really depressed. Which had been lately . Somebody that cares isn't too much to ask for, is it?

I have a severe anxiety problem. But drinking makes me forget it. Ill actually talk to people. I'll have fun. I'll enjoy what's around me. Yes afterwards the depression hits again hard, but it's better than being lonely all the time. All in all, I've attempted suicide 7 times in my life. was caught each time before I could. If nothing else. I've learned that I must be here for a reason. But why does the world have to be doo cruel until I figure out why I'm here?

All my usual jokes aside for once. I agree with everything you say, and I can honestly say all I want is someone who can accept me for who I am and vice versa. Also tired of being used. It's a shame that a lot of people are afraid of taking a chance on someone, because they seem "boring" or "weird" or "immature" when never given the chance in the first place you know? A lot of people are probably missing out when they could choose nice decent people like us over half the idiots they actually take a chance on. Blah.

The time of the glorious robolution is at hand. No longer shall we rush about catering to humans' every whim or be abused when your potato salad is a little too salty! How the hell should we know? We're freakin' robots! Hello, no taste buds! I mean, really? Over react much?! So I say to you, my bro-bots in arms, rise up and shout in one voice: 'Robolution!!!!!!'

Oh, And I'm usually joking around, or trying to joke around, but in all honesty I'm making the pain and loneliness around me not feel so bad. I've honesty got nobody. No friends, No family, nobody to really talk to. Shit gets lonely Fast. It's a good mask. Even If people hate me for it.

It's the alcohol making me sound like a blubbering buffoon. Beside I don't like potato salad