ok so I'm at the bar

I'm lonely and depressed. How do I life? Prz halp

What you should do is instead of drinking while being depressed, you enjoy the small things. It's not about the big picture it's more about the small little details that we always miss. When you walk outside on a nice summer day, do you even notice the blades of grass so perfectly growing and moving in the wind ever so gently? You have to slow down and appreciate the small things, and you really don't know what you miss until you don't have it anymore. If you were to go blind tomorrow, the first thing you will most likely miss is the ability to see light, or maybe the beautiful sunset? So instead of thinking about how lonely you are, and trust me I know I sit in my house or go out by myself all the time, and when I approach females they brush me off like dust. You should view it more ass a choice to be alone to figure one self out rather then your alone because no one cares or loves you. Hell I'm alone all the time, you think I don't sit watching anime by myself wishing I have someone to hold and care for? I simply take it with a grain of salt, and I decided that it's my choice rather then me not being able to find someone, that's why i'm here to find someone maybe, and also find a better more sophisticated group of friends. Also if you need a friend, or someone to talk to I'll be here, I'm always open to new friends.

I don't do pot. Never have Craig's list sucks for this area. There is nobody looking for someone like me. Just sex crazed prostitutes and people who don't know when not to wear lingerie. I had 4 shots of courage! 3 three wise men and a 151

Fucking being lonely sucks. Just once I wish somebody cared about me as much add I cared for them. I'm tired of being used for sex, money, or whatever. I fucking want someone who likes me for who i am. I'm not a bad guy, I have my flaws, But I'm not a bad guy. Ugh...

I just never smoked. Not cigarettes, or anything . No desire to. Maybe in brownies or something I wouldn't mind but I don't want to smoke.