Bettering Yourself

lol this brings back sooo many memories, before i was into anime i was one of those douchy asshole kids, i dint have the best of friends, we thought it was cool to steal stuff and do drugs and all that retarded shit, but then again i grew up around the populated mexican ghettos in Texas, so i was easily influenced by my surroundings. But i dont know what happen to me but my whole mentally just changed and i dint wanna end up stuck here like all these other people struggling, i just wanted to get out of here and make something out of myself. I started watching anime and shit, i pretty much lost all my old friends, they thought it was gaay, or that i was actually trying too hard in school lol, and all that other shit people say, but i could care less, i had already found myself and i am not gona change who i am just because it is frowned upon by other people or quote in quote the hot girls at school lol. But i was able to make new better friends who were actually nice and had similar goals like me, and i am so glad i dint end up like my cousins or my other friends who have no future at all. But back to the topic i meant to say was.... although its gona be the same shit u were talking about that u dint wanna hear about... that I dont care what people think about me or what i look like, this is who iam and i dont wanna change just because some people or girls that i would like to hook up with think its socially unacceptable, i used to care sooo much about looks, reputation and respect but now i just dont give a flying fuck, like if anyone is ever gona try to do anything, but if you really cant accept yourself for who you are like you were saying then thats a whole different situation i guess. sorry for this long ass comment lol, but this just brought soooo many memories

^I applaud this post. Screw that "tough guise" shit. Most women have shit values. And most men are tools to try to meet those values. I don't think it's a stretch to say it's the cause of many problems in the world, from petty bullying to war. So, disregard "hot wimmens," watch anime. World peace.

@oreo Nah that's cool, I didn't mean changing yourself for a woman, I meant changing yourself for you. My requirements for a gf are similar interests and isn't a slob. Also good job in getting out of the wrong crowd, too many of my friends fell into one and never got out.

I always doubted myself for not being born with looks. However within time its best to accept yourself without concerning yourself how you look.. As long as you enjoy being yourself and not someone else, things could go your way. Who cares how you look.. Who cares what they think.. Its not like you'll always deal with the same people that try to push you down. They talk shit? Fuck'em.. Theres people that acknowledge others for their talents.. But people acknowledging others for looks degrades them.. Its like liking a popular girl.. You cant say anything but shes pretty.. Remember this saying: "No ones going to remember from here on what you do, so take your chances and do WTF you want".. You get rejected? Fuck that person.. Theres more fish in the sea.. You can fall in love again.. So dont doubt yourself on who you are..

Bettering yourself is a neverending process because there is no perfect and there is no end. My first issue was weight and appearance. Had the gross neck thing going, fat (not baby) face and breathing problem, like that one guy on the mic on Battlefield that breathes a little too heavy but doesn't say anything. Looked at the mirror, looked at the gut, looked at the scale, and decided to myself how in the hell did you get to look like this. Some of it was because of school, other because of life, but in the end I knew it was because I didn't care, and the reason of not caring is because there was no direction in my life. In some freaky way, you can say ANIME changed me for the better. The first time I cosplayed, I looked like utter crap. This wasn't anyone elses opinion on how they looked at me. This was my own. So for the next year I decided to look halfway decent in my cosplay the next time I put it on. Within months I dropped 20 pounds. Along with losing weight I started gaining confidence in myself, as well as not looked so much like a sweaty fat guy. And the result? Next year I put on my cosplay I kinda still looked like crap because I dropped two sizes, hence my cosplay was too big now, and my belt didn't fit unless I stuck out the belly. But I saw it as a win for myself and in the end that's all that matters. Anyway, as I said there's no stopping to bettering yourself. You're just in trouble if you stop. Now I got to work on not only getting back to my lowest weight I've been in a long time, but bettering myself as an aspiring convention planner. Next goal in life is to run my own anime convention set somewhere in downtown Charleston sometime in the future, which I think you can call bettering some of my commitments in life. First you need that goal to point yourself in a direction, then you have a starting point to better yourself.

@ramensoup I totally agree. Life is a process of bettering yourself, regardless if it's a physical aspect, personality aspect, mentally, career, what have you. If you never change, then you're just stagnant. But you gotta do it for you, if you don't then it'll be harder to commit to it

For me it hasn't been my looks that affected my outlook on life it was what went on in my head. I was very close to someone and I had thought about telling her many many times. Finally one day after 9 years she asked a question I had been asked before and I decided to tell her. Well needless to say it didn't end well, she stopped talking to me completely and I went into an extreme state of despair. EXTREMELY long story made short I learned that even when it comes to someone you love there has to be secrets because there are just some things people can't handle.