I don't know what is going on. However, it sounds like you are stressed out by trolls here. Remember: You are alive and doing well. At the end of the day, you are you as you are trying to reach out and at the same time be new and different. There are others who have had a mich tougher time. Your efforts are not wasted and you are heard.
Please don't listen to the troll, I know we haven't really talked and I've only made one post on your wall, but I can say I'd like to get to know you and I'm sure others at MaiOtaku really want you here too.
You are alive and doing well. At the end of the day, you are you as you are trying to reach out and at the same time be new and different. There are others who have had a mich tougher time. Your efforts are not wasted and you are heard.
"Master, shoot me a beam." - Neco Arc Chaos