Lamby

i found that pic of me as lard ass dollar store spaget. if you still wish to view this, let's exchange disc tags! i wanna be more public with my appearance but it's very closely tied into all of my recent bullshit as to why i'm hesitant. wahh

Its this goofy contraption where you adhere a safety pin with the pin out to the bottom of a Mason jar, and you make a hole with some straw-width tubing in the lid. (This is specifically for old school dry hash) you light a corner of the hash piece on fire, put the lid on, and you just put your finger on the end of the tube and take it off a bunch and it fills the jar with smoke because of suction and air physics and shit! Once its filled to the users taste just breathe in through the tube. At least I THINK that's what happened. I was already really really fried when he showed me and our friends that so I dont quite remember >_< And I've only seen one psychiatrist and they were super mean to me about my distrust for medication so I just basically told them to fuck themselves >_< I have shitty digestion and metabolic issues so I'm really afraid of starting any sort of medication regiment. So many meds (psych meds or not) fuck with metabolism and I'm already only eating like 1400 calories a day and ughh. I just want to live in a society without crooked capitalism, honestly. It may not be the root of my depression but it sure is the root of my anxieties. And dont worry about harping on anything, I'm not a social pushover, the moment I want ya to fuck off on a certain topic I'll let ya know! And yussss a book nerd. I knew mansplaining the war of the ancients books was a bad call! Fucking loveeeee the warcraft lore. And honestly you may have read more than me >_< maybe you can mansplain the horde stuff to me sometime =p I only know what I know outside the ancients stuff from playing wow and warcraft 3 frozen throne. And yussss she was a super sexy maniputalive elf who wanted max power! Gotta love it >_<

Fuck yeahhhh. There was a heady older hippie dude who I played dnd with at uni who always wore tie-dye dresses. He taught me so much about smoking weed and hash with weird devices like safety pins and Mason jars and hot knives >_< the real ones know that clothing has no gender! Wear what is comfy and what makes you feel gooddd

In the pursuit of full disclosure: I most definitely probably need it >_< I have almost no motivation to be an adult on top of other things I probably should have been pink slipped for. On a lighter note! Yus pls do so at your leisure ^_^ And hell yeah! Is that a new animation where you shake your butt at someone or just a text emote?? That whole situation sounds dope tho haha. And Azshara has super cool lore!!! Idk if you read any of the books but ooooof. I could nerd about it for a bit but I should go sleepy. Happy post-halloween! Hope you had many fun sp00ky moments ^_^

And that is one difference between us. I tend to spread myself super thin and surround myself with friendos. Just how I've always been =p so were not PERFECTLY identical, which is a relief tbh >_<

My roomie at uni had that citalopram script but he stopped using it all the time to go on acid and alcohol benders so >_< it didnt have the best effect on his personality or mood. I had a pretty negative opinion of it bc of that but maybe it was that specific situation. And either would be fine. Idk what main is in this case (MO I assume?) But disc is always super chill as well! Up to you!

Yayyyy the big text wallllll ^_^ unlike you I have no such paragraph allergies! I dont really see you as aggro as much as blunt, which is an awesome trait. It's super not manipulative to be blunt which is why I tend to be drawn to ya. I promise I'm not holding in criticism of you in an effort to manipulate you. Like I cant just be fake critical for the sake of seeming proper >_< you're fucking dope and talented and the moment i have problems with you or your art or anything I will let ya know, bet! I loveeeee tearing down other smart artsy ppl to make myself feel better so the moment I feel that urge is legitimized i promise I will! And I do have a diagnosis but refused to ever start an SSRI regiment. I love myself as is too much to want to change. Now you have me super curious about all this! And hmm give me a few hours and I'll come at you with all my whiney shit. I would love to talk about all the fucked up shit i did and went through recently. Not just for the emotional ride but also to give you a better picture of who I am, but I need a bit! And I've kinda sorta published some stuff. Some writing in a small zine. One music video. Some sound cloud shit. Not all of it is equally serious tho. And yusss please be devastatingly critical. When you tell me im a genius poet I need it to be true and not just cause you want me happy!!

np np. i like creative writing a lot, but specifically story writing is an area that i'm not really experienced or qualified to critique academically, but also i definitely have an eye for *vibes* so ill be totally honest with ya if it excites me in that ASMR type of way! and no need to thank me for my time, i'm very intrigued by our kindred nature and am really fond of our exchanges and interactions (hopefully that doesn't sound TOO creepy >_<) and lastly, don't be so quick to judge me as nice. i've been reckless and impulsive a lot in the past and although i think i mean well i've genuinely hurt people before in a wanton pursuit of fighting my depression. my way of coping with those personality/mood flaws is just acting like a reflection of what people bring to me, so probably it's just that you are a really nice person yourself and it makes me want to act like that to curate a good social experience for both of us. basically just wait till i find someone who i deem both toxic/evil AS WELL AS intellectually/socially capable as me, i'll turn up the psychotic gas in a moment's notice to have a weird 'love-to-hate-them' relationship >_< "if you ever need something I'm here for ya" haha i very well may take you up on that! i'll make you listen to all my whiney rap stuff and you can see how cringey i am too =P