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♠️ JuuzyFruit ♣️

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If this isn't what you're looking for, I don't want it.

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Finished Darling in the franxx. It was okay until about a little over halfway through. Also the ending disappointed me. Oh well good watch.

juuzyfruit
♠️ JuuzyFruit ♣️ @juuzyfruit I really enjoyed the series I'm just being picky in this post xD
juuzyfruit

Yeah no shit xD

ivytsuta
Nov 16, 21 at 9:11pm

Welcome to forever singles club @juuzyfruit.XD

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I ask God why he would give you to me for so long, just to rip you away and give you to someone else.
Never have I loved so intensely. Never have I had something so important taken from me. I can't figure out how to get over this. It's been so long and everyone keeps saying it will get better but the pain just gets worse and worse. I don't know how to do this. I'm pushing every day trying to get past it, I'm working so much and I'm doing new things and talking to new people but at the end of every day my mind only goes to one thing and that's you. All of our memories, the plans we made, everything we did together for those years, your beautiful face... I can't stop it. I have so many questions and I still don't understand why it happened. I lost my light and now I'm lost. Like half of me was ripped away, given to someone else, and the other half is struggling to survive...
Why did you have to be so important to me..?

juuzyfruit

Thanks @hungrytired i really appreciate the response. As toxic as I've seen Maiotaku be in the past there's always been good people here ready to help xD
Really though thank you.

hungrytired
Nov 15, 21 at 7:07pm

@juuzyfruit

She was good to you in the past and helped you out of a dark times. But this time she did you wrong.

We knows that relationships go 2 ways and shit happens. You will feel a bit better in the future, but right now it hurt very much. All of us who have been in a loving and trusting relationship that didn't go our way experienced this. There will be mornings where you wake up crying because your chest hurt so much you don't know how to stop it. I hope you don't live in the same space you guys spent your times together, it's nothing worse than sleeping alone in a place full of memories.

Just remember pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional. You've done a good job at describing and verbalizing your feelings onto sentences thus far, it's important to know that you're in the state of despair. So you can do something about it.

There is only one thing I want to highlight; take charge of your happiness. No angel can save you. You only have yourself in the end, and you are the one who are responsible for yourself. People comes and go, you need to be selfish and put yourself first. That's the only way to survive, protecting yourself, physically and mentally. I've went through some stuff myself, therapy and medication helps, and from what you wrote about your state of mind right now there is noway you can go through this alone. Reach out to family or even a free chat services, hell, I even chatted with some bots online. And vent here. There are always peoples here to talk with.

Please take care of yourself, remember to eat and try to sleep. Cry yourself to sleep is fine as long as you sleep. Take long shower, listen to sad songs, believe me, the more you let it out the more you feel better later. Don't hold it in. Mhmmm, and I can't stress this enough, watch some hentai. xD

Here is a stupid quote: “I think you still love me, but we can’t escape the fact that I’m not enough for you. I knew this was going to happen. So I’m not blaming you for falling in love with another woman. I’m not angry, either. I should be, but I’m not. I just feel pain. A lot of pain. I thought I could imagine how much this would hurt, but I was wrong.”― Haruki Murakami, South of the Border, West of the Sun.

And here is a Ted talk, the video is nothing special, but you should watch it on youtube and scroll through the comments :) It helps.

hungrytired
hungrytired @hungrytired You're welcome buddy. Do take care.
ivytsuta
Nov 15, 21 at 4:40am

Yo that is definitely from Tokyo Revengers!

juuzyfruit

Nice to meet you leaving

gabriel_true

Hi, Back!

I'm Leaving!

Nice meeting you.

juuzyfruit

Ahh I see that's kinda how it was back in the day too.

cac
CAC @cac commented on Hi. I'm back ig.
Nov 14, 21 at 8:28pm

It's kinda dead, kinda not. Depends on the day.

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