drkylec

I can not get out of my own head. I assume that any girl I go to talk to will not want to be with me. I haven't had a girlfriend since I was in high school. Which was 7 years ago. I was with her for 2 years. After breaking up she would still come to me for sex from time to time or just to hang out and was poisoning my mind more thinking we would get back together or that she loved me still. Boy was I wrong I finally asked her if we would ever be a thing still because I still loved her and she looked me right in the face and told me she never really loved me in the years that she has known me and was only with me because I was pretty good at sex unlike the guy she was with at the time. It destroyed me I have yet to fully recover. I distanced myself from society except for my closest friends. I feel like it was me even if I know it wasn't. I have met other girls through work and friends but the fear is always in the back of my head that this will happen again. I know that is also probably not true. So I have turned to online dating. This has proven to be of no luck in the past few years signing up for sites paid or free doesn't matter I message all day and night coming up with something to make myself stand out from the other guys. So I am hoping that a site like this with a forum to talk to multiple people at once might help out. Anyway sorry for being depressing I just needed to let that info out. Hope to meet someone on here or at least make a few friends in the process.

Brand new tried other dating sites without luck so I figured I would give this one a shot since it has a bit more of what I am looking for. Just wanted to say hello and I am always looking for new friends that may become more.