Empyreal Light

yeah when i was younger like in middle school all the girls came running to me and im like woah >.> because i had no interaction with girls whatsoever XD they kinda scared me at the time now its like meh i dont get that much attention but its whatever. i dont feel i look bad i mean im not one of those guys who is literally every girl's type but im ok? i kinda want to know the difference in my looks back in middle school compared to how i look now. if i got rejected i get salty like idek i kinda just want to stop talking to them and like forget about them tbh

i dont mind bigger girls but there is like a limit to how big like they can be a bit chubby but like when they are like too big then yeah i cant do it im sorry i mean i dont find anything wrong with them just personally i cant do it. thats the only thing i cant do. and it would help if they were decent to look at im not saying you gotta be the cutest girl in the world (if you are then that means more competition and i cant have that lmao) but you gotta be that one person where if one day i woke up next to you i wouldnt feel disgusted with myself >.> sounds mean but idk. im in no mood for dating either like i feel its done more bad than good for me and now im turned off to the idea. i would kinda want to get my life in order first before i start dating cuz right now idek what im doing with my life. yeah i mean i like being on the slim side but holy hell at least let me look fit or something not like stick XD i wanna upgrade from a stick to a branch then we are all good. gamestop is pretty cool i was there when the first game stop was introduced to my city the place that was there before was called EB games and then gamestop had this thing where if you beat a game in 3 days you can trade it in for a game thats equal or lesser value and that way i got to play a ton of games for literally nothing

yeah man i hated that and after a while they stop giving you money back period like now you can only et in store credit from trading a game in which is dumb your better off going to a pawn shop since they wont give you money back and they are giving you $5 for a $60 game which they will sell for almost the same price you bought it for. well i mean nowadays girls like guys who are fit like when you see in the movies and the guy takes off his shirt and is ripped and the girls start staring and junk? but there are still guys like me who are skinny asf and then the fat people who barely get any love (except girls who are considered "thick" everyone is after girls like that now) i used to buy my own games i dont think i had an uncle that did that for me tbh

i mean ofc there are buff dudes and girls there your gonna have to do some extreme exercise while your in there so you might as well get your body in shape to make it easier. i watched a video saying people come in and they arent in shape and can barely do the work outs but they still have to do them anyway so it makes more sense to have already done that outside of the bootcamp. me i can probably do around like 12 push ups (without actually doing them regularly) the most i have done in one go was 21 i need double that before i go in bootcamp. i need to be able to do 42 push ups, 50 sit ups, 10 pull ups and run 3 miles. im only motivated cuz its something i wanna do ^^; dont wanna be that one person who lives with their parents forever kinda want to go out and do my own thing. lol your nephews are pretty lucky XD i wish i got a ps4 for christmas. my stepdad would "get us" a ps4 for chirstmas and he would say its ours but we never get to play it how funny is that? i feel like spending my money on video games would be a waste because i would play it then when i beat it its like yeah now i dont wanna play it XD i've done everything there is to be done there is no reason for me to play it anymore

ooooohhhh ok ok so its more for you than anything else thats why you dont mind paying so much for it. i see well yeah thats not bad XD its like spending all your money on video games and stuff its something you want to do so you dont really mind. i was just trying to wrap my mind around it sorry >.< QAQ wow you say it as if im not unique feelsbadman jk jk its cool uhhh yeah i mean those guys that sort of kept this place interesting left and i dont think they are coming back tbh key i wasnt THAT close with and i have a feeling i pissed him off somehow idk why. but like the people i found unique were awesome people like they just kept my interest in them and made things less boring right now i feel its like bleh another boring convo about nothing....if my messages ever come out this long you know its because i find you interesting otherwise i would send a short reply back because i just dont know what to say cuz im not fully there? idk how to explain it lmao well i got through to my recruiter (thank god) he gave me questions to answer and that was like 3-4 days ago still waiting on a reply its being done over email cuz he hasnt picked up his phone at all whenever i called. i was just about to come to his office and personally leave a note if he wasnt there cuz dude it was stressing me out cuz i wasnt getting anywhere. but now im gonna start building myself up working out and doing stuff for the first time in my life im gonna get up early just to run ^^; gonna start drinking protein stuff and eating more food cuz i cant go in like this XD im a stick dude

nah man its cool i understand people have stuff to do so its cool. idk if people think anything like me if its free why would i pay money anyway? i mean not everyone thinks like that but idk im sure people will donate but in the end more money is coming out your pockets than what is going in to help. yeah they never stick around that long so it will pretty much go back to being boring like it was before and so far it doesnt look like anyone fun is passive through here right now

the kind of conversations that are being held here are kinda lame its not even about having fun on here anymore i feel like everyone just turned it into a dating site (i mean yes it was always a dating site) but its no longer about hanging out and if your lucky find love now its about trying hard to date this person and impress them 24/7. my newsfeed is just full of people going back and forth with each other sending suggestive posts and the forum topics are kinda dull now (the truth or dare thread isnt as interesting either) so yeah alot has changed. and yeah no need to rush other things come first. the ads might hlp you alot tbh idk how to get them on your site but i think you should look into it

Yeah, you never know. J.R.R. Tolkien was actually born in South Africa-an interesting related fact. That's an awesome title for a fantasy story! The setting fits: rolling mountains with verdant fields. I can totally see it. 0u0

It does. Actually sounds like out of some fantasy novel. =8 I don't know how it got that name-people probably thought of giving the coolest name possible so they settled on that. That's a pretty great naming policy, actually.

never heard of it tbh spruz nor AoA. at least get some ads on your site or something dude >.> $50 a month isnt cheap if you add that up your paying ALOT of money a year and gaining nothing from it you'll be broke in no time :/ especially with the $500 down payment. nah your overthinking it just message them like me ijust say whatever it doesnt take me long to send you these messages XD i just actually have to read your first cuz i mean im not on here that often but when i get on and see your message i just reply no problem