Kane Wrote Stuff

Thought I might as well throw some of my poetry on here. My apologies if anyone thinks my poems are too... something. I wrote about whatever tickled my mind. I'll put them in order I wrote them, so at least there's some arbitrary order to my madness. I have uploaded all that I could find, so feel free to comment if you so desire. I suggest reading "The Serquance", "Living in Darkness", and "Lies Become Reality". Enjoy if you so desire: <br/><br/><br/> As the sky darkens, and the stars start to shine<br/> I look at the stars, whose radiance fills the night sky with light<br/> As I do this, my sorrows rise up from deep inside<br/> They fly from me, but not without leaving tears behind<br/> As a tear traces my cheek, I wish I weren't alone<br/> Wishing someone were here that knew how it felt, I grimace with shame<br/> As people approach, I wipe my tears and smile<br/> Only to have them replaced with more once they leave<br/> I am alone, with only my tears and a star lit sky to comfort me<br/> <br/> - Starry Sky<br/> My first poem (04/27/2009). Inspired by the Mandy Moore song "Cry"

The great darkness has come, but few resist it<br/> The light dimmed, but no one took note<br/> The lost are forever abandoned<br/> The hungry are forever empty<br/> Honor is left without a wielder<br/> Fear is invited by all<br/> Agony is brought on by celebrations<br/> Joy comes from tears<br/> The world revolves around those who inhabit the valley<br/> The shallow seas swallow all who hope and dream<br/> Trumpets sound as if the Chosen have come,though they have been vanquished<br/> The grass waves as in welcoming, though it's leaving<br/> The sun shines, but the darkness swallows us<br/> The clouds are few, but they gather and block the light<br/> Trees whistle a song, a song they don't mean<br/> The cities are full, overflowing with emptiness<br/> The foolish are credited as wise<br/> As the storm gathers, I am alone<br/> I stand alone against all<br/> My end has come, will you live in the darkness?<br/> <br/> - Darkness (04/28/2009) <br/> Inspired by generic dramatic nonsense I read all over the place.

The storm rages in the forest, the one within my heart <br/> As the clouds gather, I try to hide <br/> Alone I walk, the sound of thunder breaks the silence <br/> Rain pours down, soaking me to my very soul <br/> I run in fear, as the thunder approaches <br/> Lightning crosses the sky, reaching to snatch my withered life <br/> I run, the lightning follows <br/> My feet carry me as fast as they can, but the storm follows <br/> I trip over a root, hitting the muddy ground <br/> The storm laughs triumphantly as it draws near <br/> And just as its hands were closing on me, you appeared <br/> The storm halted and stared in fear, fearing you <br/> You looked at me and smiled, the storm vanished <br/> ... <br/> The sun shines in the meadow, the one within my heart <br/> And as the sun shines, I walk through the meadows <br/> I walk with you, with only words to break the silence <br/> Happiness fills me, soaking me to my very soul <br/> I walk calmly, because I'm with you <br/> <br/> - The Storm Within My Heart (04/29/2009) <br/> Inspired by storms and Kingdom Hearts

Guns fire, cries are heard <br/> Out on the field of battle I am <br/> The enemy presses forward <br/> We exchange lives like grains of sand <br/> My friends fall limp, bullets in their chests <br/> One after another, they fall <br/> Despair fills my heart <br/> Here in battle, it matters little who you are <br/> If you are an educated man or a hoodlum, bullets care not <br/> Another friend falls, looking at me, then his eyes dim <br/> These men that I've known for years, die in seconds before my eyes <br/> Great is my pain, I decide it would be better to die then to live after this <br/> As I stand up, to invite my death, I remember you <br/> Your smile and laugh echo through my head <br/> I duck back down, determined to make it out alive <br/> Grab my fallen comrade's grenade and fling it at the enemy <br/> My mind races, gunshots and explosions are heard, but not noticed <br/> I awake to find myself alone, ducking behind a tree <br/> The forest is quiet <br/> I stand to walk, but feel pain in my limbs <br/> Blood covers me as I limp towards camp <br/> I see the tents as my eyes start to dim <br/> Men rush out to me, but I cannot hear them <br/> As my sight dims I pray that I will live to see you again <br/> And if not, then I shall look forward to seeing you in Heaven <br/> <br/> - A Soldier's Strength (04/29/2009) <br/> Just wanted to make a poem dedicated to the military.

Darkness gathers around me <br/> I feel as though I'm being torn, torn by the shadows in my heart <br/> The darkness grows as time goes on <br/> I mustn't surrender, for if I do, I will die <br/> As the darkness comes, I wonder "Would be so bad to die?" <br/> My shield simply replies "You mustn't die, you must fight for right" <br/> I shrug and grip the handle of my blade <br/> My sword whispers "I'm ready for a fight", I wish I was <br/> I look for reason to fight, like my shield and blade <br/> I search my mind for reasons, but there is none <br/> Darkness has come, I will slay it, but will I survive? <br/> I may let it kill me as it breaths its last <br/> But why do I wish to kill the Darkness, I ask <br/> My shield eagerly replies "To protect people" <br/> My sword chimes in "Because only you can" <br/> I lower my sword, finding no comfort in what they say <br/> This fight has no meaning, since another will rise and takes its place eventually <br/> But I will slay this one, if only to please my companions <br/> In the end, though, I shall let death claim us both <br/> Since death shall free me of my pain <br/> Darkness can merely take my life, but my soul will live on <br/> I raise my sword, determined to die in this fight <br/> At last the shadows would leave me <br/> But as I glance at my heart, I caught glimpse of a light <br/> A light that glowed dimly, and I thought I saw someone <br/> Someone I didn't know <br/> I didn't see the face, but it was what was causing the glow <br/> I raised my sword up once again, determined to survive this <br/> If only to know whether that person exists or not <br/> If that person doesn't, I'll find another chance to die <br/> If that person does... perhaps the shadows in my heart will leave <br/> The Darkness roars and and gathers around me <br/> I breath in deeply and raise my shield <br/> The battle begins... <br/> <br/> - Shadow Heart (05/01/2009) <br/> Inspired by my phrase "Noctis Philosophor", although it's "Heart" rather than rational in this case. Emotion, rather than thought, thus the uncertainty.

The streets are broken, like shattered pottery <br/> Buildings are in ruin, bent like trees in a storm <br/> Bodies cover the ground, all is silent <br/> In front of me is the one who caused this <br/> The one who has brought destruction <br/> His hallow eyes stare through me, as if I didn't exist <br/> His smile twitches in delight as he walks toward me <br/> All alone, everyone I know is dead <br/> He approaches me, hunger in his eyes <br/> Despair grips my heart, I know it's the end <br/> My life flies before me, seeing all that had transpired <br/> Bodies lay nearby, all of them people I grew up knowing <br/> Now cold and dead, never to speak another word or smile again <br/> I remember my family and friends, all are gone <br/> I wanted to be strong, to protect them, but it seems I couldn't <br/> He draws near, licking his lips, enjoying my despair <br/> But my fear turned to anger, He has taken everything from me <br/> I cannot die before he has paid for what he's done <br/> He laughs and lunges for me, I will end him, I won't surrender to death <br/> And so I fight, I fight for those he's taken, and for those he will take <br/> And so, I take what may be my final breath, and the fight begins... <br/> <br/> - Final Battle 05/19/2009 <br/> Inspired by dramatic pre-battle scenes.

As the sun sets in Vegamon <br/> The little Mermofs scurry home <br/> And as the sky turns red, silence spreads <br/> From my Relcin cabin in the heights I sit quietly <br/> How content the Mermofs live, in their little Tellish homes <br/> I sigh and bade goodbye as I drift off to sleep <br/> The Serquanse once again visits my dream, and haunts me giddily <br/> I try to wake up, all to no avail <br/> The Serquanse laughed ghoulishly as it approached <br/> "Oh foolish Valder, you seek peace though you are war" <br/> My mouth moves, but nothing came out <br/> "Remember your fate, embrace your future, become me once again!" <br/> Serquanse glowed trestion, then touched my shoulder <br/> PAIN! PAIN! Pain filled my every nerve! <br/> My body cracked and broke <br/> My legs melted and became tentacles <br/> My arms burst into flames <br/> My eyes were pierced by spikes <br/> Pain, anger, and hatred filled my mind <br/> And with a blood thirsty howl I charged into Vegamon <br/> I no longer controlled myself, I could only watch the horrors I was committing <br/> As the last Tellish home burned to the ground, the Serquanse left my body <br/> With one last laugh it said "We'll meet again!" <br/> I collapsed, unable to move <br/> ... <br/> I awoke short of breath <br/> Sweat soaked me to my bones <br/> The bitter cold morning tore through me as I got out of bed <br/> As the sun rises in Vegamon <br/> The little Mermofs scurry of to work <br/> And as the sky turns blue, noise reigns <br/> From my Relcin cabin in the heights I sit quietly <br/> How content the Mermofs live, in their little Tellish homes <br/> <br/> - The Serquanse (06/03/2009) <br/> Inspired by the poem "The Jabberwocky"

A whisper, a sound <br/> If only I weren't buried in the darkness <br/> I wish to leave this hallow void, <br/> And go into the light <br/> But, Oh! The pain it causes <br/> Every venture into the light ends the same <br/> I run into the darkness, to hide from the pain <br/> And every time, a little farther <br/> A little deeper into the darkness <br/> And my heart dies just a little more <br/> I crave companionship, but get only enemies <br/> I seek understanding, but get only pity <br/> I dream of forgiveness, but only receive judgement <br/> In the darkness, I now hide <br/> Cloaked in this darkness, I am safe <br/> Though it eats at my very soul <br/> But the light, is no better <br/> So I stay here, where no light can touch me <br/> I feel no warmth, yet no cold <br/> I am neither happy, nor saddened <br/> For I am empty <br/> But wait, a noise is heard <br/> Footsteps echo in the darkness <br/> Has the light come to hurt me more? <br/> Have I not suffered enough? <br/> Must I be shredded again? <br/> Has my one haven been taken from me? <br/> No, the footsteps don't match that of the heartless <br/> Nor does it match those of dead hearts <br/> Could a heart exist that isn't dead, or empty? <br/> The shadowed figure reaches out a hand <br/> Should I take it, and risk being hurt again? <br/> I grasp the hand, hoping this time it will be different <br/> Perhaps I won't be betrayed <br/> But such thoughts are futile, <br/> For I shall only be hurt again <br/> But I have nothing to lose <br/> For my heart is dead <br/> I have only to gain <br/> As I may receive hope <br/> The figure leads me off down a path <br/> Where are we going, only time will tell <br/> I gaze back at my dark haven <br/> "I'll be back soon", I half prophesied. <br/> "After a little more pain, I'll return <br/> <br/> - Living in Darkness 11/02/2009 <br/> Inspired by Kingdom Hearts, my poem Shadow Heart, and just generic dramatic darkness.

Apathy is death, a slow death <br/> A death that starts on the inside <br/> It eats and devours your insides, <br/> Leaving you without a heart <br/> The pain you suffer is unimaginable, <br/> It hurts beyond all imagination <br/> No one understands your pain, <br/> What it feels like to rot away <br/> They feel you can just "shake it off", <br/> Or you're just "acting up", <br/> Or perhaps it's "just a stage" <br/> But we know it's something much deeper, <br/> Something that goes to our very souls <br/> Yet we cannot describe it, <br/> And we cannot tell a soul <br/> If we could, we'd tell them how it hurts, <br/> How it's hard to do even simple things <br/> How we have to go a mile, <br/> Just to reach our bedroom door <br/> And how we cannot feel anything, <br/> Except the emptiness inside <br/> How we suffer, die, and rise, <br/> Only to fall again <br/> Whenever we see a light, <br/> It's just a glint off our own tears <br/> But they just don't understand, <br/> They think our sadness is just a fad <br/> But the pain I feel is real, <br/> Even more real than life itself <br/> But perhaps my pain is unreal, <br/> and maybe it's all in my mind <br/> How do I stop this pain, <br/> The pain I feel <br/> All my insides are rotten, <br/> And it's starting to show <br/> I think I can keep it hidden, <br/> Or at least for a while <br/> But without anything inside, <br/> I am worthless <br/> I am a hollow shell, <br/> Each time I'm stabbed, <br/> I can feel it, and the pain lingures <br/> I used to shrug it off, <br/> And pretend nothing happened <br/> But now, even that is difficult <br/> But I don't care, <br/> This pain has made me numb <br/> So now I lay here, <br/> With nothing inside, <br/> Waiting for the day <br/> When I will meet my demise <br/> <br/> - Neverending Pain 09/10/2010 <br/> <br/> Inspired by my extensive research into depression: What it is, types of depression, what causes it, effects on people, and what life is like with depression.

Apathy is death <br/> When all feeling leaves you, the sunlight has no warmth. <br/> Your blood runs cold, and your heart stops beating. <br/> When you become void devoid of emotion, there is only a hollowness. <br/> Life becomes meaningless, a vacant space of time. <br/> But you can give it importance, feigning its value. <br/> Day to day, you distract yourself. <br/> You refuse to recognize how pathetic and useless you are. <br/> Do this, do that, go here, go there <br/> Life becomes a never-ending circle of futility. <br/> Love this, hate that, ignore this, attend to that <br/> with such meaninglessness, we can forget our meaningless existence. <br/> But the truth lurks in your mind, and murmors in your sleep <br/> You cannot escape, it is bound to your very soul <br/> If you bloat yourself with empty pleasure, you will forget <br/> But it will remain forever lingering on the fringes of your mind <br/> If you do good, you will find meaning <br/> If you do this, the truth will die <br/> Such futile thoughts are as meaningless as your life <br/> If you are wicked, you will taint your heart to match a moonless night <br/> Feeling will depart you, and you'll no longer see the truth <br/> But you still feel its presence, forever watching you <br/> Fear fills your every waking minute, you have yet to realize <br/> You cannot ever satisfy the truth, it never abates. <br/> Destined to suffer, you can only fight or surrender <br/> It matters not, your very existence is meaningless <br/> <br/> - Apathy is Death xx/xx/2012 <br/> <br/> Inspired by the Knights of the Old Republic quote "Apathy is Death". Oh Kreia, I love/hate you too, you worthless best thing in the galaxy that is lower than dirt.