I can even find a best friend, let alone a relationship. What's wrong with me?

Yeah, I understand this. I basically grew up with little to no friends and I went through all of my school life basically alone and with people bullying and making fun of me... many times, I yearn for just somebody to talk to but I feel odd because most people are either busy, don't want anything to do with me, or maybe they do want to talk to me, but I feel so uncomfortable around the fact that they may not stay for long or that I'm getting in the way of their other friends.

I am an introvert, so I do enjoy time alone. I'm just alone...mostly all the time. There is a difference between alone and lonely. I'm lonely. And I would love to get out more, even without other people. But I don't have a car. So I can't get around anywhere. Which is why I sit in my apartment day in and day out besides work, which I walk to. If I had a car, I would try and find shit to go to. Comic shops, other cons, shit like that. I could try and connect with someone. But... nope. o_< I'm 23 in a month too. No license.

@Skie, in regards to what you just said, I am probably a bit of the same, alone and lonely. I barely ever leave my house because i have nothing to do. I havent even been able to get a job, and I know of no way of reaching out to people with similar interests here in my town because there is no program for that.

I'm not trying to downgrade what you're saying because I know it can be kind of a hassle to get around without a car and maybe even more so in the place you live but I might also add that I don't have a car as well. Along with not having a car I also have topographnosia which makes it almost impossible to navigate properly even if I did have one and I still manage to go places. Take the bus? ride a bike? Not saying that you have to do this but they are options , what do you think can help you form better relationships with people? you mentioned you want a best friend maybe you're seeking relationships with people who don't want to be close with you and unknowingly ignoring those that do. I think just the fact that there are people in this post that relate to you shows that there is someone in the world who you can form a close relationship with.

Well if u wanna talk go ahead and message me :) haha its always cool to vent to a random person :P

Sweetie..Nothing is wrong with you..I totally know where youre coming from..I was backstabed to many time to trust people I met at my high school..I felt like I was their puppy and doing ...pleasing them..It hurted when I reluized the truth..I gained enough courage a cut them off and started at square one..It was tough..I should them my true colors and met new people to converse with even underclassmen..My family was torn deeply when my Beloved Memaw passed on three months ago and that totally scared me..She was like my mother honestly she raised me since I was about 10..That is when reality struck hard..Yes..its so hard meeting that person to trust or fall in love with..But that person has to show up..it takes awhile to trust but you'll know when to open up..and if you every need to chat I'll more than gladly to respond to you..But in the mean time just be yourself for that is what truely matters who cares what people may say or thing..There is only one you and one me..So live it up and just and Smile :)

Don't feel too bad OP. Believe me, you're not the only one in the boat who gets envious when they see couples and groups of friends have a great time at cons and wonder why you can't find the same? I probably spend far more evenings when I'm not working at home alone playing video games or mucking around online and I do have a car. Sometimes I do wonder why I'm as anti-social as I am and I'm sure it's not helping me in my attempts to find a SO. XD Sites like okcupid and pof.com are really hit or miss for the geek set. A lot of people on there are just looking for hook-ups and are not seriously attempting to find a lasting relationship. You're also at the mercy of most "normal people" scoffing at the idea of dating someone who likes anime, video games, etc. That's my experience from them anyways. Not having a vehicle or any reliable mode of transportation can make being social difficult. I would suggest maybe seeing if your local university has an anime club and maybe even see if you can attend meetings. Most clubs, from my experience, don't mind non-students joining or at least participating and that's where I met a good portion of the circle of friends I have now and where I helped organize and staff our local anime con.

In terms of the anime conventions, have you considered volunteering? That's always a good opportunity to meet new people and chat with them. Once, I was looking for roommates randomly to split the cost of a room and one of the guys came without knowing anyone and now he's tight with us group of con staffers and longtime volunteers. It's really just that thing of having to put yourself out there and keep trying until some people bite, ya know?

@skie, I prepared a very long response to this thread. The website ruined that response by not posting it and clearing the message box. Skie, there is nothing wrong with you. If guys say they are interested and you find they let you down give them some tests before hand. Ask what they would do in specific scenarios. Lay out scenarios people would do for each other if they were in love. This will test their ability to be empathic and compassionate. If they don't match your quality they are not worth the time. Feel free to join the rejection bandwagon with me. We'll start a party for us and make it a singles meetup :p