i need someone to love

I know how that is. My ex broke up with me a long time ago but kinda strung me along a bit more at intervals, last talked to him in October via text but no reply so I've been trying to distance myself some. I still feel lonely, but it's kinda more apparent due to my living conditions. I've been talking with friends when I can to fill the void but really there's nothing like having someone really close like in a relationship. I've rushed into things too many times before and messed up a lot, so I'm just going slow and pacing myself this time until I find someone I really click with. In the meantime I'm trying to think about things and get some stuff in order with my life. Things are lonely now, but eagerness to pull out of that can have drastic results, tending more to the bad. Just keep trying and you'll find someone eventually that you can start a relationship with and be happy about. ^^

my friend i so totally know you feel right now it sucks i know but what are you gonna do. I remember ones i try buying love (worst idea ever) and i ended up been cheated :(...

I have to agree with sapphireyes, it doesn't matter how bad you want a relationship you should be able to like yourself and have fun even while not in a relationship. In other words you shouldn't need some person to make you happy. Doesn't mean I don't know how you feel I mean really I've gone on dates but technically been single my whole life. I've never had a "girlfriend" and it sometimes frustrates me, makes me mad, and I do wish I had some one to hold, kiss and tell sweet things to, to be with but I don't need them that's for sure. I don't need anyone but my friends, family, and at least for me God (I know that might not be true for everyone but that's a talk for a different day so lets not get on a big religious debate K?) Even then I don't feel like I necessarily need my friends or family to carry me, or to make me me, I only need me. You come into this world alone and you die alone too so if you can't trust yourself to make you happy how can you trust anyone else to make you happy?