Empicca's Territory

832PM: (random) For reals fascinated by how different every brain works when it comes to generating thoughts/emotions/behavior etc. etc. etc. My brother and I had lunch today. We are both law students, he is from the medical field tho and I am from management/accounting, we also study in different unis. We had a talk about graded recits and I told him how I feel nervous every time and how I feel so shit whenever I have a bad recit. Most often I would cry or choose to isolate myself. I asked him if he feels the same way, and he said no, he said he does not take things personally. He would just simply brush it off, study, and do better next time. He said sure it feels bad, but he wouldn't let the sad thoughts consume him. Had a lot of realizations after that. https://c.tenor.com/9GwESelzF9kAAAAd/foxe-loh.gif

Is this the place we used to love? Is this the place that I've been dreaming of? Where have you gone? I'm gettin' old, and I need something to rely on. Tell me when you're gonna let me in. I'm gettin' tired, and I need somewhere to begin. And if you have a minute, why don't we go talk about it somewhere. This could be the end of everything so why don't we go somewhere only we know? https://youtu.be/Oextk-If8HQ

You're aching, you're breaking. And I can see the pain in your eyes. Everybody's Changing, and I don't know why. Everybody's Changing, and I don't feel the same. Soon you will disappear, fading into beautiful light. Everybody's Changing, and I don't feel right ~ https://youtu.be/Zx4Hjq6KwO0

I felt the guilt build up as I looked back at how things went wrong. Did I have to sweep in and scar you? We shared the bittersweetness of our youth. Then we broke up, because sometimes it is the best thing to do. Did it ever cross your mind that maybe you hurt me too? But I'm not taking it against you. I never wanted anything but to see you reach your dreams. I apologize for coming into your life just to break your heart and leave you in the night. I tried my best to stay by your side. Sometimes we aren't meant to be the one. So goodbye to the ones we once loved. When things got heavy, and you expected more from me, I tried to be there to take away your tears. But I didn't notice that I was chipping away at pieces of myself ‘til there was nothing left to give. I didn't even want to live. I realized it wasn't anyone's fault at all. It's just that I wasn't built to build you up when you fall. Maybe we were meant to be a lesson to each other. But I wish you well, and I'm sorry. I wasn't meant to be the one. So goodbye to the one I once loved ~ Hayss. Such a good song ~ https://youtu.be/xifzlRqt0qo