Random thoughts...

you're funny if you think adults see shit everything exactly as it is. people are easily indoctrinated and manipulated into blinding themselves. and it's not fun, it sucks that really rich and powerful and smart people do that to us all and make us hurt each other. it's okay to want to take people for emotional rollercoasters, but they have to have signed up for the ride, and you have to be willing to bring them back up after you pull them down. maybe try redirecting that malicious energy into a more positive one! write a story about those hateful thoughts. it sounds pretty profound and poetic to me and i don't even know shit about you or your situation. all i know is if you continue to refuse to play nice, you're going to lose everything. even the kindest most golden-hearted people have limits for toxicity. i would know because i'm a toxic-as-shit person and am trying to get better

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