Your dreams and ambitions

Even though I have felt like I have accomplished most of the big professional goals I've always wanted to do, I still have one set of things that would really grant me true happiness. And that is to find friends and a significant other who truly love me and not just appear because of my successes or think they can get something out of me. This is why I love Japan so much, because it's one of the rare times in my life where I feel that I am not judged and implicitly told that I am worthless. When I am involved with Japanese culture, and even geek culture in general in things like Steven Universe, I feel like I am home again and that I am truly at peace. It's in this place of acceptance where I feel truly alive and if I can never find a relationship there, then I would rather be alone for the rest of my life. No game, no competition, no put down is worth it. This is the greatest desire of my heart, more than money, fame, influence, significance, or becoming someone who has changed the world. But even so, I still know that I can never have this without following what is right and that this desire is not a means to an end. So the best thing that I can do now is simply live the truth. And I hope that at some point, I can finally fall into the arms of someone who always happily comes back to me of their free will.

Lets see: -Stay single -Make a trip to Japan to see the best spots of Sakura Blossoms -Overcome my cat trauma -Sucessfully be a CFL -Learn to cook

- Get a satisfying degree in terms of knowledge pertaining to Mechanical engineering and later on try to get into Mecha-tronics. - Maybe rejoin the Canadian Forces and go all the way. - Complete the thing i want to invent or at-least commit something to the science of it. - Start a family and be a loving father. - Start my own business. - Visit japan and see the Himeji Castle, also visit a Niten Ichi-ryū School(Perhaps try to get into a few classes.)

-Take over the world some night. -Look like a 2009 Megan Fox. -Having a baby boy to inherit my power and a good submissive husband. -1000 million dollars. Good luck knowing what I truly want, though.

Maria just wants to be loved... otherwise maria is ded. Draw me another picture m8.