Pika-Chan's House of Whatever

Usually I'm very strict quiet person who hides everything. Recently I have been trying to change. It took me an entire year just to ditch my military thinking. This is me trying to help people it's um different for me. I think I'm doing well.

You don't have to force yourself to help me but the thought is nice Merc I've been here for over a year now but not many people here really now me that well I'm kinda like a happy ghost that drifts by often

What kid said. That sounds like a cool robot to be buds with. As long as you realize that you can't be happy all the time, that's fine. We're given a wide variety of emotions for a reason and all of them have a purpose. Yes even depression. It allows you to stop and think, to reflect on what you've been doing before moving on. I've rarely been a happy kid growing up, been disappointed way too many times. Even so, I always wanted my friends to be happy. Don't worry about trying to make others happy so much. You have your own happiness to worry about first.

I'm not forcing anything I'm trying to change to be more friendly. I think I'm doing well. I would like you to rely on me if anything happens. As a friend. I'm willing to truly get to know you if you are willing to learn a few things about me.

I care more about others than I care about myself Another flaw of mine And in turned I end up getting used because I'm nice Double edged sword right?

Not true. I feel the same way. I'll go without sleep to help a friend, for example. Dunno if I'll even make a difference but I do try. Because I think it's worth it. As long as you think it's worth it, why would it be a flaw?

Being nice is not a flaw. People being twisted enough to use your niceness are the problem. I would go out of my way to help anyone but usually people push me away because I'm abit um what's the word intimidating.

But it seems after while I end up hurting people who start to care less and less about me It's mostly due to how I was raised Always getting blamed for things I didn't do Nodding and saying yes like a mindless robot following orders Emotionally, physically, mentally abused as a kid But that's life right so who gives a flying fuck about one person when there are millions with the some problem?