What is the most traumatizing fucked up Anime you ever saw

i think boku no pico is for the win i got dared to watch then afterwards my friend got me a bottle of jack d so i couldn't really complain but still

Higurashi probably. However, I didn't finish watching it so idk how messed up it got later on. I've heard horrible things about Boku no Pico for years so I'm glad I avoided it. o.o

In terms of fucked up I could talk about speedgrapher, Shigurui, rin, higurashi, elfen lied and the list goes on. But none compare to the manga of berserk. With copious amounts of slaughter, rape, monsters, monster rape, death, destruction, betrayal, child rape, torture and general agonizing misery.

Speedgrapher had a strange premise & story line, not something that would ever make adult swim, but I found that enjoyable. However, Rin... I saw the first couple episodes of Rin at a convention in a dark room full of people. I remember looking around at everyone and thinking, "What the hell am I watching! This is sick, this is cruel, why the hell are we all watching this. Who are these people around me? Did they know this show would be like this? Are they as creep-ed out as I am?" None the less I went out and bought the series in the skin like textured box. That is the only anime that really had me disturbed. It did get less torture-some in later episodes. I have not seen too many that really got my guts in a twist. Now the guro posts on some of the chan boards and the artists behind those really disturb me. Not so much the graphic violence but the imagination of the designers. What psychopathology must they have to not only think up such cruel and evil scenarios, but to bring about images. That takes time. I don't those thoughts and images swimming around in my brain. I felt like I needed PTSD treatment just viewing some of those. ooh.I need to go barf and take a shower from thinking of those.

Tenshi no drop it wasn't traumatizing (i dont find things "traumatizing" anyways) but boy was it freaking full of "what the fuck"