Second Life: Otaku Haters, Yaoi Haters, Defamation.

I had many friends on second life and lost all of them. The most populated places in second life, I hear mean words in their microphones like, faggot, nigga, pedo and other prejudice words. Haters talking stupid things about me being a man in Girl Body inside metaverse, they keep laughing from behind, and being agressive most of the time. Scars and fear I got from being being cheated many times. Defamation about me in the ears of people that I loved, broke my faith in everyone that tried to love me at later time. I even got really mad at the creator of my own avatar, hopefully - by my own mistake. Cheaters, liers, fear, prejudice, and no one seens to be real with me. Good people mix with scum defamators, we never know in who we can trust. We ask if they can tell me what other people say about me, so I can defend myself, but no answers. I lost all hope. There is no worse feeling of loneliness in any other dimension. It was late to show my real self, late to trust anyone back again. Following TOS, having as they described, description of my anime character mature age above 18 years, above 30 points height, and carefully asking people the age before engage in virtual sexual relation, yet some people just ruined my reputation, and laugh at me as if I would never note their sarcarsm, even from the some staff out there. Discovering a buble of griefers around me, that it was really hard to reach fair and real otaku people for love, lands owner hiding avatars to cheat me at my own face, playing without me, while i was feeling abandoned, waiting for my new "love". Sometimes I asked people, I was just invisible to them, hidden from others in orgy roons by the owner of land? How many times all those things above happened to me... Found good people, yes but I could not deal being "the other" because I wished deep in my heart to be special to someone as Twin sister Chinamini and my sister Yumiko :). Barred after from some lesbian places (my avatar vagina did count for nothing) for whatever reason defamation was great there, everyone knows something I never knew. Soon I was ready to give up search love in second life. Someone keep destroying my face to others, how could I clear this? If i share my own image will not make it more real at that point. I have a couple of real life friends there. I carefully rejected underaged people from adult relations, to discover later that I was being called baka for not braking the damm sl laws. Just to have a hint that I have one yandere destroying my face to keep me alone, and loosing people that I love, one by one, by otaku and yaoi hater girls. Everyone that reached me was suspect. I broke down. Second life is now for me good only to hard heartless virtual sex and no love contemplation. I'm a love person. I felt all that possibilities to love as avatar was destroied by few underage brats that think they are "saving the world" just to hide their own real sh*t.

I never tried to use SL to find love, mostly because I wasn't on it frequently enough to develop close connections with people. Many people don't even understand loving anime or they think only of common stuff like dragonball, naruto, bleach etc. My friend Loli-chan and I both appreciate anime lolis but lots of people just give us shit because to them lolis=pedophilia. They don't understand the difference between 2d and 3d. Lots of people are bullies in one way or another. It makes them feel better about their own insecurities to put down others. It's a sign of immaturity and I just ignore and won't deal with people like that. Finding love online is difficult regardless of how you do it.

Your're right. vampire_neko. I do my best to look innocent and cute, and I love to be called kawaii. But they don't realize that my actions fit only on sexually mature girl, very rare exceptions, even so I respect the avatar height and carefully follow TOS, or second life laws, and my country laws summed with my partners in play, what people that judge others don't do right, absolutelly. Is not hard to see people in big trouble from time to time because of that. 2D loli is being more and more condened in japan, so I keep myself away from groups, this new repression over japanese people will raize the level of actual abuse, because japan being free was the country with less abuse (until now). Repression creates the worst results. The worst country, where the incidence of abusive crimes is where the religious laws are more rigid. Mid-Asia. Is like invite people to break laws, naturally. Most women does plastic surgery to look younger, and yet when you try to make a good kawaii avatar like mine they abuse us, judge us, or play with our heart as if we where scum, and when I hide about my real life, they love and respect better, but they get angry when find out about my real life actor behind. It was worth to see how must be hard to be a kawaii girl, you never know if the person you love is just using you, and don't give a sh*t about your heart. Today they don't judge by fantasy in mind of stable and controlled people, but if they could see, they would crucify innocent people for sure, and a bunch of uncontrolled terrorists would multiply because they born out of unfortunate excessive repression, manipulation, and injustice.

I miss chinamini. Chinamini was in love, never to talk hard like I did above. I was ready to give to my love all pleasure and trust. I did with many people with love and respect. I really thankfull to them. I was fool of my own goodness, and gave window to be cheated. It was a great surprise to see how it hurts, and how much drived me insane. Second Live drive you insane. Is actually good for sexual fantasy. Nothing wrong with people that use for that. The problem is that, no matter if the actor behind is male and old, when I was a girl, and felt cheated, the mind damage was the same as real, could have killed me. I really understimate the simluation quality of metaverse. I really wished from the botton of my heart, that I could yet find someone like me. But I got blind to the truth, everthing seemed a big lie to me. Actually the first actor is my soul. In this life, my soul is female. I'm quite afraid of results, maybe people get angry at me again. But you know... this is what I call unintentional advertisement. No matter how, I had so much, but so much fun. Even when it was only sex, and I actually loved to see them reach the climax. Just like a girl do, just the pleasure of being well used. Its so good to be a girl. And.. as chinamini i say. Minna Arigatou! (everybody thanks) Minna DaiSuki! <3 (I love everyone) <3

My avatar is female too. I understand how you can feel emotionally in the role of your avatar as becoming like the real you in another life. People are cruel, but still not everyone is like that.

I used to play SL a long time ago but sadly my computer can't keep up with the rising system requirements. Plus it was pretty hard to make a decent looking male avatar without spending a decent chink of money. lol

People spend 20$ on Mcduckdonalds and never a cent in virtual. I agree is expensive for a copy. But I had so much fun. It pays back. Don't max out grafical seetings . Sl works better in premium account parcel with a couple o friends. Griefing and DDS is realy common there in public crowd places.

Chi-chan. You really have guts to create this topic. This visibly brings a bunch of MaiOtaku people into sl!

@Chinamini. Sadly my computer is pretty old and never had much graphical power even when it was new. I have problems just running any of the viewer updates that came out past 2010 even on the low settings. :( That is true about the cost though. But if you're gonna spend $20 on fast food then at least make it something better than McDonald's. I'm more of a fan of Arby's, Jack in the Box, Hardee's/Carls Junior's or Subway myself haha. XD