maaxx

-studying -still on L's -will deploy in the army after 6 month course -solid cook, -confident guy. -adaptive Read at your pace. Some shit to me still seems irrelevant, small talk, relationships, sex, strong emotions alot of it seems weak, pointless and a waste of energy.. but I find great enjoyment in it all. I don't understand why, with such a shit world that needs much improved that I do love living life in it. I am just a standard guy for now, less then that maybe but so many things are just so fascinating to learn about and I guess thats what drives me. I don't want to try and hope for someone to understand or to view the pointless and non pointless shit the same way as I do, sometimes I do wonder what that would be like but I feel if I can find just a lil something in an already great person maybe I can find something more to drive me then a stupid pipedream that will inevitably consume me. The harmonic part of any relationship comes naturally but for it to feel genuine makes my heart skip a beat.. I probably wont speak too much more like this if thats alright.