Losing a pet is a different kind of pain. He was my baby, my little companion, my small child. He was hot even two months old and he was taken from me. When I opened the box that reviewed his small little body I could not breathe. My knees immediately became weak, my lungs filled with nothing, I yelled in pain and hurt as I had to identify my beautiful baby boy who was ran over by an unknown person. I threw up when I first saw my lifeless baby. I felt sick to my stomach I couldn't eat for days. I still don't have an appetite. We were looking for him all day and immediately put up signs with our number and his picture. Around 6pm we got a call from our neighbors down the street who just had a party. They said as they were cleaning up they came upon a diaper box and we're confused because no one who attended the part had a baby. They looked inside the box and automatically knew it was our cat. We were at the park when we got the news. We all started sobbing as a we just felt in our gut it was him. All this time he was just down the street. I feel empty at the moment. I feel helpless, I feel hurt, regretful and sorrowful. I miss my baby. I need my baby. I remember our exact last moments together. I was off to work and he was sleeping on my stomach. I got up to get ready gently placed him on my blanket and wrapped him up. Gave him kisses on his tiny little forehead and told him I loved him. It was almost the perfect last Goodbye. If I knew that would be my last day with him I would've called off of work and made sure he was safe. I miss my Chibi. You will never leave my mind, memory, thoughts or heart.
Graduate HS= Done✓✓
I am so excited to be graduating soon!! Although with my birthday and graduation only 2 days apart it is a little overwhelming, but I know when it's time to celebrate it will be very memorable!
I found a 1986 toyota corolla GTS which is a DREAM and they only want 8,650 for it! I did some calculations and it'll take me 6 months to get my hands on it. I swear I am so excited and I am PRAYING it is still there by that time. I want it so bad man. We'll see 6 months from now will I have it??
Finished Banana Fish yesterday and I am still crying I cried myself to sleep and have random outburst of sobbing throughout the day. It feels like a never ending sword being jabbed through my chest. I am in so much pain. It hurts. I kind of wish I never watched it.
Today was half great! And half horrible weird right? It was all good while I was in classes and then I got home and the day automatically flipped. I'd give the day a 6/10 because I only cried 3 times:D I also had some chicken nuggets for lunch/dinner and an orange!
Shameless Self Promo: I've created a Depop for items such as clothing, jewelery, shoes, knick knacks etc. As of right now there are only a couple of items posted, but as time goes on the variety and number of items will increase.