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ghostmetalmajor

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Yeah I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah I battle with depression, but the question still remains Is this post-traumatic stressin' or am I suppressing rage? And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit everyday And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace I'm in a race against myself I try to keep a steady pace How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case? Oh my God, I keep on stressin', every second that I waste Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay Motherfucker, now you got my attention I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missin' And what if I were to lie, tell you everything is fine? Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave I am terrified, I fell asleep at the wheel again Crashed my car just to feel again It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular fucking monster Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh We're sick and tired of wondering Praying to a God that you don't believe We're searching for the truth in the lost and found So the question I ask is, oh, where the fuck is your god now? 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster
ghostmetalmajor
Will you hold the line? When every one of them is giving up or giving in, tell me In this house of mine? Nothing ever comes without a consequence or cost, tell me Will the stars align? Will heaven step in? Will it save us from our sin? Will it? 'Cause this house of mine stands strong That's the price you pay Leave behind your heartache, cast away Just another product of today Rather be the hunter than the prey And you're standing on the edge, face up 'cause you're a Natural A beating heart of stone You gotta be so cold To make it in this world Yeah, you're a natural Living your life cutthroat You gotta be so cold Yeah, you're a natural Will somebody Let me see the light within the dark trees' shadows and What's happenin'? Lookin' through the glass find the wrong within the past knowin' We are the youth Cut until it bleeds, inside a world without the peace facing A bit of the truth, the truth That's the price you pay Leave behind your heartache, cast away Just another product of today Rather be the hunter than the prey And you're standing on the edge, face up 'cause you're a Natural A beating heart of stone You gotta be so cold To make it in this world Yeah, you're a natural Living your life cutthroat You gotta be so cold Yeah, you're a natural Deep inside me, I'm fading to black, I'm fading Took an oath by the blood of my hand, won't break it I can taste it, the end is upon us, I swear Gonna make it I'm gonna make it Natural A beating heart of stone You gotta be so cold To make it in this world Yeah, you're a natural Living your life cutthroat You gotta be so cold Yeah, you're a natural Natural Yeah, you're a natural
ghostmetalmajor
Home A place where I can go To take this off my shoulders Someone take me home Home A place where I can go To take this off my shoulders Someone take me home Someone take me Look, I didn't power through the struggle Just to let a little trouble, knock me out of my position And interrupt the vision After everything I witnessed, after all of these decisions All these miles, feets, inches They can't add up to the distance That I have been through, just to get to A place where even if there's no closure, I'm still safe I still ache from trying to keep pace Somebody give me a sign, I'm starting to lose faith Now tell me, how did all my dreams turn to nightmares? How did I lose it when I was right there? Now I'm so far that it feels like it's all gone to pieces Tell me why the world never fights fair I'm trying to find Home A place where I can go To take this off my shoulders Someone take me home Home A place where I can go To take this off my shoulders Someone take me home (it's been a long time coming) Someone take me Home, home Home, home Someone take me Home, home Home, home Look, I been through so much pain And it's hard to maintain, any smile on my face 'Cause there's madness on my brain So I gotta make it back, but my home ain't on the map Gotta follow what I'm feeling to discover where it's at I need the (memory) In case this fate is forever, just to be sure these last days are better And if I have any (enemies) To give me the strength to look the devil in the face and make it home safe Now tell me, how did all my dreams turn to nightmares? How did I lose it when I was right there? Now I'm so far that it feels like it's all gone to pieces Tell me why the world never fights fair I'm trying to find Home A place where I can go To take this off my shoulders Someone take me home Someone take me I found no cure for the loneliness I found no cure for the sickness Nothing here feels like home Crowded streets, but I'm all alone I found no cure for the loneliness I found no cure for the sickness Nothing here feels like home Crowded streets, but I'm all alone (someone take me) Home, home Take me home Home, home, take me home Someone take me Home, home (someone, someone, no place like home) Home, home (Someone take me)
ghostmetalmajor
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ghostmetalmajor
I feel you crumble in my arms down to your heart of stone You bled me dry just like the tears you never show Why don't you take what you want from me? Take what you need from me Take what you want and go Why don't you take what you want from me? Take what you need from me Take what you want and go I never needed anything from you And all I ever asked was for the truth (all I ever asked was for) You showed your tongue and it was forked in two Your venom was lethal, I almost believed you (almost believed you) Yeah, you preyed on my every mistake Waited on me to break, held me under hopin' I would drown Like a plague, I was wasting away Tryna find my way out, find my way out (find my way out) And it finally came the day I start giving my heart away For Heaven sakes, my bones will break But you never own my soul, no I feel you crumble in my arms down to your heart of stone You bled me dry just like the tears you never show Why don't you take what you want from me? Take what you need from me Take what you want and go Why don't you take what you want from me? Take what you need from me Take what you want and go I took them stones you threw, made chains for the crew (ice) I brought up ten hoes, this coupe only made for two (yeah) They all ran through it, it ain't nothing left to do I need some more reasons to live out this evening (straight up) I've been sippin' forever and just taking whatever Hoping, thinking whenever you'll be back around Let's go our ways, whichever You say how is however long 'Cause you know I never be alone Love (yeah) Shorty gon' back (shorty gon' back) Need it on sight (need it on sight) Crack it all back (crack it all back) Give her that pipe (give her that pipe) All of my cash (all of my cash) Shawty went bad (shawty went bad) I feel you crumble in my arms down to your heart of stone You bled me dry just like the tears you never show Why don't you take what you want from me? Take what you need from me Take what you want and go Why don't you take what you want from me? Take what you need from me Take what you want and go Take it all away Why don't you (take what you want, take what you need) Take what you need from me, yeah (Take what you want) Why don't you (take what you need) (What you need, yeah)
ghostmetalmajor
Living with these shadows Separating what I've done And chasing the illusions Of who I once was Too much time, too many places Different lives and different faces Stripping down and bracing for a change A better life, I'm searching for A better life, I'm searching for Someday I'll begin to live my life I pray I'm okay for now At least I'm breathing, I'm dying I'm reaching through myself For another way I can win and live my life again Someday Looking for a sign as desperation sets within Boredom starts to blend into another sin All this time, all this weather Drink my wine, I'm no better Everything around me stays the same A better life, I'm searching for Someday I'll begin to live my life I pray I'm okay for now At least I'm breathing, I'm dying I'm reaching through myself For another way I can win and live my life again Someday Searching for a life, I need to know I'm searching for a part of me to follow Too many people with their hands on me None of which I really give a shit about anyway Shedding all my skin to start again and again Shedding all my skin to start again and again Shedding all my skin to start again and again Shedding all my skin to start again and again Someday I'll begin to live my life I pray I'm okay for now At least I'm breathing, I'm dying I'm reaching through myself For another way I can win and live my life again Someday Someday