Religious rants

I had a really weird dream, basically in my dream it had alot of things to do with AI. There was a rapid rise in AI technology like im talking rapid. It went from AI waifu on the web to being able to buy AI sex dolls and everything. I was walking on what appeared to be some sort of campus. People were being amazed because Amazon had just installed a new AI door. It would talk to people as they passed by. I remember being creeped out because it was just another way for them to spy on us. All of the sudden the door started quoting a bible verse. The thing is its not a bible verse, because it said something thats not actually in the bible. I looked it up once i woke up. But i remember running and telling people its qouting the bible and no one cared. I then continued shopping in the neighborhood store and you needed a point system to be able to buy stuff.

Im starting to wonder if God put this in my head for a reason. I cant see why i would have this dream. I never once dreamt about AI, nor do i ever interact with it. Its kinda like how we use our phones everyday but never dream of one. Its strange how my whole dream was focused on this one aspect.

Brothers and sisters, the seasons are changing. To those of you who dont believe in the LORD and savior Jesus Christ, please at least look out for whats coming according to the bible. I really feel it deep within me that something is going to happen soon. I dont know the day or the hour only our father does. But i hope that if you guys can at least know what to look for, you can save yourselves from death and be granted eternal life. I care for all those reading this and while i may not remember you in heaven, i would feel comfort in my current life knowing you made it in yourself.

Some good resources here for those of you who wish to know your roots when it comes to the God of the israelites and the religion we know today as Christianity. https://youtu.be/impDPX2WxrU?si=6Vw-UKZfkDmHvomj https://youtu.be/R59J-8Dm4pw?si=bbUDEWDBpYgjpN8I https://youtu.be/5Xja2l1djoY?si=x06cDVxWGASijxTi God has blessed my life with knowledge. The most high, the all knowing. For those of you observing Easter sunday remember Easter comes from the spring goddess Eostera. And the bunny and egg are symbols from ishtar the goddess of fertility worshipped by the assyrians. Move through the faith and educate yourselves. Our LORD calls on us to not be decieved and many of you who feel the bible contradicts itself must know why. There is alot of information and things floating out in the world to distract us from the truth. The path to salvation is hard and narrow and few will find it. Most of you will choose the easy way that leads to destruction. But I with all my time that is dedicated to the LORD and learning about him, will continue to spread what he has revealed to me once I come across it. The LORD is coming.

Ok guys hear me out, this isnt really biblical, scripture or anything as much as it is a conspiracy theory. But watch, apparently on 8 April will have a total solar eclipse. It will cross over the US in an X formation. But watch this apparently, cern Switzerland is going to fire up their hedron collider on the same day. Now im not sure why the Christian community is losing their mind over this total eclipse. But someone mentioned how they are gonna use the hedron collider the same day. Now, i dont think this is all for nothing. I dont understand why exactly people are going crazy over this because the bible doesnt takk about it but one person mentioned it opening the gates of hell on that day. But to the skeptics, ask yourselves why is a man like steven hawking afraid of such a device? Several scientist think this hedron collider is dangerous. https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&opi=89978449&url=https://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-13249813/amp/CERN-accelerator-smash-particles-solar-eclipse.html&ved=2ahUKEwjlmbio0p2FAxXrGDQIHSYIAugQFnoECBEQBQ&usg=AOvVaw1pt6U6L29N5LFxOoxenhKU

There was the thought it could create micro black holes(It didn't.). That's it. Why study particles on that day? Perhaps it's just to study particles that are easier studied during an eclipse... It's not some anime where we open some magical portal to hell. People fear what they do not understand, simple. Why would beings who are supposedly so much more intelligent than us need our help to do that? I mean, even the spirits asking to be put in the herd of pigs said it wasn't their time. So, it's not on us to open some mystery gate. But, what do I know? If you fear knowledge, we will always stay in the dark and I believe a creator would love nothing more than for us to learn of the glory of it's creation. Eclipses happen EVERY SINGLE YEAR and have since the dawn of time. I doubt your creator would want you to panic when it's not on our time that these things are to be decided.

Yeah again like i said its not exactly biblical so i dont get the big fuss. But i dont believe the hedron collider was meant to glorify God as much as if was meant to disprove him. This eclipse apparently is different than the one last seen in 2017 but again idk. Strange things are happening these days. Now, see i dont believe man has the power to open the gates of hell. But they do have the ability to incur the wrath of the one who does. Now when God has had enough of our sins and abominations in his eyes then it may be a possibility. Nothing we do now glorifies God except in the praise and worship of his divine presence in our everyday life.

Back again friends, so some things have been revealed to me. Apparently the enemy moves in ways to hide the truth from the sheep of the most high. The word Lord is translated to baal when translated back into hebrew. Now as i get deeper and deeper into the faith the holy spirit guides me to the truth. Yahuah, the most high, that is the true name of God. The modern Judaism took the 3rd commandment of not taking the LORD'S name in vain. They then decided to not say his name at all. The ineffable name doctrine. Now The Lord was a name they used to call him but it was said Adonai which translated to The LORD. However we can see how the canaanites and isrealite culture mixes and how we have been decived by the enemy. It appears through my research that modern day bibles have taken out or replaced things in the bible. The KJV which i thought to be the most accurate representation actually followed in modern Judaism. You would need a closely translated hebrew to english bible. Now i found one but before I put anything out to the fellow sheep i must myself test it. I wouldnt promote false things and lead those astray. More to come.

I am always reaffirmed by God, whenever he reveals these messages to me it comes at a time when im currently in the same book within the bible as when he speaks to me. For example God has hid his name from his people. In the book Ezekiel which is the one im in currently. "And when they entered unto the heathen, whither they went, they profaned my holy name, when they said to them, These are the people of the Lord, and are gone forth out of his land. 21 But I had pity for mine holy name, which the house of Israel had profaned among the heathen, whither they went. 22 Therefore say unto the house of Israel, thus saith the Lord God; I do not this for your sakes, O house of Israel, but for mine holy name's sake, which ye have profaned among the heathen, whither ye went. 23 And I will sanctify my great name, which was profaned among the heathen, which ye have profaned in the midst of them; and the heathen shall know that I am the Lord, saith the Lord God, when I shall be sanctified in you before their eyes." Ezekiel -36:20-23 God is good, I keep marching forward to his truth. I only wish to spead his gift to me with others. When God gives you a gift it is meant to help others. If you recieve wealth it is meant to help others with it. When you recieve a platform it is meant to spead the word. When you recieve knowledge it is meant to share with those who dont have it.

Just now starting my journey with Jesus. I realized I was a narcissist in 2019. I've been in isolation since then doing erratically controlled searches for ways to grow. I tried just about everything except hard drugs & proper therapy due to lack of narcissism specialists. Most of the therapists are for narcissim abuse. I was reluctant to focus on Jesus because I knew I didn't have enough awareness & knowledge to tackle religion and avoid dawning the ego of sanctity. As in holding the belief that my ways are correct & superior to others because I attempt to follow and learn from Jesus. I experienced some negative religiously charged manic moments because of this disposition but succeeded in seeing how incorrect and unready I was to follow Jesus because of them. I was not yet correct in my ways and even if I was it would make me no better than others. We are all sinners. I feared interacting with the Word of God until I was smarter & more prepared as a person. So, I learned about psychology, philosophy, introspection, meditation, cross referencing, computational thinking, and the what's my reality is based on for 5 years in a mad dash to stay ahead of my illness. I was learning alot and felt I was getting ahead of it. I was gaining awareness everyday. But, I failed to see the deeper problems of me even after giving my all in seclusion for 5 years. It wasn't until I went partially insane from conversing with myself about the dark truths of the world. Because of my low empathy disposition all I knew how to focus on was all the lack of empathy I see in myself and around me. I thought that was my ticket to learn how to do better so I followed all the pain signals to learn how others are being hurt and to think of ways said pain could be avoided for things to get better. For me to get better. But, at some point it became to much. As a follower of pain... The darkness I was chasing to learn about swallowed me up. I became bitter at this existence. I became feral at the pain points. The quiet part I said it out loud. Due to having a low empathy disposition and a veil over my eyes when it comes to all the love in the world and myself I had no way to handle all I put on my plate to know about. But, because of my erratic flailing from the pain and not knowing how far I'd go even in a incorrect state for a chance at empathy. I developed schizophrenia. I was lost in my ways. I tried the ways of the world and still couldn't beat narcissism. All of a sudden voices started telling me how stupid and evil I am. Counteracting all my erratic ventures of mind. It hurted. I was use to hurting myself but the voices/spirits don't get tired. Many times I was overwhelmed. But, I soon came to realize the thing I want so bad they are giving it to me. Which is awareness. It just hurted to follow them deeper into my psyche but without them I never would of got access so deep. They had access to all of me as if they were seeing threw a window. Everyday I'm convicted but that's what I need. I'm unsure if there demons or divine retribution from how insane I became. But, calling a kettle black is what I honestly needed. If they are demons then the fact that they can only attack you by using the dark knowledge about yourself is a plus. Cause they have to be convincing. I get to know how fucked up I am to my core. Only downside is them crushing your spirit and you turn to sin. For me since I been hurting myself with dark information for years it's slightly tolerable. It by no means a pretty situation. I just can see light in the darkness. They don't know how desperate I am to keep chasing my dream of having empathy. I'm tired of pretending. Sometimes though they show me the problem over and over when I don't have a answer for it. That really hurts. Which ultimately brung me back to Jesus feet. Realizing my struggle alone could not even compare to what help could do for me. All the things I learned only got me inches. If demons or divine retribution can blow all I could ever amount to on my own out the water. I can only imagine what Jesus can do for me. Though I am tired after that mad dash. Realizing the path I walked was but a detour. No matter how hard I sprinted the real walk begins now. It's demoralizing. I gave my all to those subjects. When I should have been giving my all to Jesus. I'm distraught at the path before me. But, I tried alot of the options of the world. Jesus has to be the cure. It's unfortunate my disposition is incompatible with Jesus. Narcissist sin is foolishly believing they can be there own god. I've experienced out of this world paradoxical traps of mind dealing with this complex condition. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. It's unpleasant, frustrating, confusing. I just hope god has mercy for someone who loves him but trapped behind automatic beliefs I don't agree with but don't know how to stop them. I am truly dissatisfied with a condition that makes me distance from you. I know your there though or I would not see light. So, there's gotta be a possibility for me. This where I'm at with my faith. I'm just starting but finding it hard to draw near God because it's like I was made to not go pass go. It's like I'm in a mind field and everytime I step off the starting line I die and reset. I can't move until I learn all the minds but everyday I step on a new one then have to learn about it. Sometimes I don't have the answers to the way forward but I can't reach him to ask. But, I won't give up hope. My only way out is to learn about the darkness of me which depths increase everyday until I understand it all and can path a way forward. But, learning about all this stuff without proper empathy leaves my mind susceptible to new darkness or the darkness behind the darkness. I envy others. Which is said not to be good by God. But, the narcissist path is ludicrously difficult. I'm thankful my hope still works even though I'm low empathy. Doing my best to written in the book of the living. Right now I think I'm in the dead. My starter class sucks balls. It has to be the worst one. When all they say online is there is no cure. So, I'm tasked with impossible difficulty. With inherent traits that are a enemy to me & the gospel. But, they was already preselected. Your not suppose to be able to control mind to the extent I have to learn in order to make it to Jesus feet. I have learned to not be so negative against my self because of tag teaming with the voices. Somebody gotta keep the spirits up. I'm not even good at ingenuity and my intelligence is low. But, I gotta pull off a upset somehow. Life be crazy. My test is fucked. Here's a song about how it feels to be a narcissist. https://vocaroo.com/14528XYckXpo