What are your goals?

I've done the same I was taking courses at uni but they're really strict with attendance policy dropping grades and I already had trouble regulating a sleep schedule when depression and anxiety issues made it so much more difficult. Now I'm just learning online with duolingo and French friends at my own pace and it feels a lot better not to associate a language with that kind of stress. If I become fluent this way, my university can accredit me with a really cheap test too.

@truffle imo, having a goal makes you stronger. walking aimlessly or sitting depressed 24/7 is not the way to live. negativity brings you down and doesn't let you advance.

@lilyyazawa It's not really an opinion, because it is well studied, but I understood what you mean. Negativity nor depression really is bad. Because in those times, you can learn a lot more about yourself and find solutions for those situations. They are necessary for success in the long run. If negativity and depression are prolonged, you can get help or also change lifestyle (depending on the reason for those handicaps). Prolonged depression and negativity can also be helped if the person is willing to also change it. Feelings of megativity and depression is normal too.

Thinking that way is actually a good point. My depression period helped me grow as a person because without it I probably would have been okay walking aimlessly in this town I live in so what you say isn't wrong. Maybe all my lows online (not getting into that, past is the past) is the reason I can feel change is coming. I'm excited, optimistic and I honestly want people to know it. January 1st 2021 will be my second act and nothing will stop me.

Goals: Finish Marine bootcamp training Enroll in Marine Martial Arts and attain highest belt possible for my rank Finish Bachelors Degree in whatever the hell I want Watch ending of One Piece Travel to Korea/Japan/Greece/Spain/France/Englad/Canada/Charles' Couch/Hawaii Buy a house or upscale apartment Get a Jeep Wrangler Meet a nice girl who wont kill me Spawn offspring to have minions for world domination Make them do my biding Become old and grumpy Play VR video games from my retirement home Tell everyone how back in my day everything was better

@lilyyazawa Strive for excellence, the best way that you possibly can. There is value in everything that you do, there are an infinite amount of ways to take advantage of that and bring it into your reality. As cliche as it sounds once you have figured out the structures of understanding that are required for you to do your best, then you can go beyond that.

First of all, not to die~ Learning Esperanto, and make some learners acquaintances. Serving my people for a few years or for a long time (depends on if my life will have drastic changes) Visiting Tibet and North Korea, DunHuang and other places. Going hiking in those challenging hiking trails. Catching a King Cobra (well, I’m daydreaming) Getting to know people who are as awesome as Andrea. Being less reserved and guarded. Hanging out with my old friends~