Suicide

Life is just a game of feels. Sometimes you feel good sometimes you don't. Try to win it and feel good. If you kill yourself than you are a one of these whiny brats who tries to destroy others game experience. -that's what my boss said to me once

Barky, And, do you believe that?

honestly I've been thinking of suicide more then before. idk it just seems like the best time, consider that i don't really have anything under my name or not anyone would miss me. I've been living lowkey and throwing away people this pass few yrs and have no goals or desires. I pretty much just live cuz my family. I already accepted depression. once i accept fear then I'll just become a floating corpse. following orders not really caring what happens to me. if this was really a game they could of done better at creating a character.

I considered it several times but once you fix up that psyche, find things to look forward to or not want to miss, and find people you would want to die with, and many other methods of just taking care of yourself and your life rather than digging the hole deeper. The thoughts kind of faded for me, even when I fuck up real bad or feel useless.

I forgot to mention in my earlier post, while I deal with depression and the occasional suicidal thoughts, I couldn't bare taking my own life and devastate my parents. I mainly live for my family and no one else. I also engage in Anime,Video Games,Hentai,Music and drawing to take my mind off of my problems. I does help, but it doesn't vanquish the issue 100%. But as I've stated everyone handles things differently, my methods may not work for everyone else.

@ohnoes: For sure I questioned this quote alot. Thats all I can say. I don't share my personal thoughts on this topic in public. Sorry :/

I can respect that. The saying? Not so much. Most suicidal people hardly make a peep about wanting to die. Otherwise, I get the saying, even if it's a bit harsh.