Suicide

Considered it, well i didnt really planned it it was more of a spontanious emotional thing and as a result of that i tried it. What drove me to do it? Let´s just say life circumstances at that time. Do i regret it? Kind of yes and kind of no. Yes bc it was irresponsible towards ppl who love me and no bc i learned so much from it and i felt like there was no other way out of suffering to that time.

@Fuminori I agree, and so is Japanese Guy Yuta and a couple of others. Sadly, my mother can't stand them and keeps bringing up horrid thoughts about Japan. I focus on the positive parts of Japan and look at negative points of it in troubleshooting and as lessons. Back on topic, this might support those of you not only in suicidal thoughts, but other problems as well: http://youtu.be/lfBpsV1Hwqs

i have planned many times and attempted many times, and am planning again for the far future. i refuse to die old and in pain. and also planning in case i get bored of living and have had enough of it. but i don't think that will happen if i can end up moving at some point and start studying more to become a pilot and go to flight school. and also focus on my streaming more and if i make more friends and have people to be around more too.

i agree with enkis post https://wx2.sinaimg.cn/mw690/87d788b2gy1fq8hc2l3ovj20ed0f3wg7.jpg