Mommy’s Random Thoughts

(8:27 PM Sun. Jan 29th) I feel bad I kept forgetting this account. I have 103 friends on this one and kept forgetting to ask if they’d even wanna get a friend request from my wei_ying account, I mean I think a lot of these friends on this one aren’t on as much? (Maybe? This account died when I became a mom on the other one so I don’t know who still comes on). But I still feel bad lol

(1:30 PM Tue. Jan 31st) I really laugh when people use the term “body count” to speak of past partners XD. I always think of the murderous type of body count and think everyone is out here killing people and admitting how many bodies they have in their kill count... I always end up remembering they mean partners they’ve slept with, but I still laugh. Lol

(9:59 PM Wed. Feb 1st) I’m watching a YouTuber that I am subscribed to, and every time I see his twin brother I feel stupid and start to laugh. Because I legit thought this YouTuber went out of his way to dress differently and act like he had a twin, I told my twin how I was like “he may be fooling everyone else but not me!” And the thing is I even looked it up because I wasn’t sure if he actually had an identical twin or if he was just really good at editing XD, every time the twin showed up I debated with myself and even pointed out slightly different features they had. The actual Youtuber was more muscular and his voice slightly deeper and likes to wear shoes instead of flip flops and his twin wasn’t as toned as his brother, wore flip flops and his voice was a bit lighter. And yet I still insisted he was fake, until I found out sometime last year said YouTuber actually did have an identical twin. Lol

UwU https://i.pinimg.com/originals/a8/0c/06/a80c0695d2504da1f0e8eda59cc1da88.jpg

@a1ephy Don’t post crap like that in any of my threads, thank you. I try and stay patient with you but I’m not having it right now ale

(11:01 PM Thu. Feb 2nd) Painted my left hand’s nails while sitting in my eldest sister’s room today. I painted it green and with gold sparkles on the other nails... that was the only colors my sister had out and I wasn’t too picky since I was bored XD. As my habit of doing I won’t paint my right hand since the nails on it don’t look good yet (and the fact I am bad at using my left hand sksksk).

(9:59 AM Fri. Feb 3rd) It’s too early for me to be up lol. But, I never speak on this but I feel like I wanna burst with sadness and maybe some anxiousness! I really am beginning to hate party going and when people do it, I have someone in my life who I am very close to that does it enough that they’re used to it... I see them high and really drunk at times... sometimes they’ve gotten so drunk because they feel sad and because they always replace that emotion with anger that’s what they feel easiest when drunk, so, they get mad at the worst of times. Well, I woke up from a dream (nightmare I say) where this person’s friends started to say they look sick... their face was starting to get paler and paler and look more sunken in/sickly each time they partied. They would get mad every time someone mentioned how sick they look and it got to the point in the dream where I stepped in and begged them to stop the “partying”, to stop the “fun”, to stop the drinking and the smoking, but they just mentioned they are fine and went to another party. At the end of the dream their friends drove them home because of how drunk they were and I hear a knock on the door and open it to see an extremely pale/green, sickly and sunken in face with the person waving around a gun and shouting about how they aren’t sick. I am beginning to cry right now because I genuinely do hate alcohol, smoking and drugs/what they can do. I don’t know if the close person shot themselves in the dream because my mind decided it didn’t wanna see it anymore. I really hope they change for the better, especially since I try and tell them to hang out with the right people but they never want to listen and I can only hope they do sooner rather than later.

(10:16 PM Fri. Feb 3rd) It is 20 degrees outside but feels like 5 degrees (I say it IS only 5 degrees). And our eldest brothers room me and my twin are staying in, their windows are worse than the one in our room downstairs! Nothing in this house is properly insulated so it gets cold so badly in our house, their room doesn’t have a heater in it and the windows have cracks in them. Which means the cold air literally blows into our room... the blue curtains our brothers hung up to keep the sun from shining in move when the wind blows in, because it LITERALLY blows into the room. I am sleeping with my twin’s blue comfy, four blankets and a winter hat just to stay warm during the day/night. I am grateful I have somewhere to live still, but I hope we move soon! I don’t wanna be cold anymore! >w< https://media.tenor.com/3--y7uX-xoMAAAAC/pusheen.gif

(12:29 AM Sun. Feb 5th) Wow! My iPad finally decided to update after a whole year! I knew if I kept on believing in it that it would happen some day *wipes tears*, and people laugh at those anime characters that run off the power of hope, love and friendship. I continued hoping and look what happened! XD https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=NieC8KA0EvI