scottguitar28

\<tl;dr> I'm fat, socially inept, insecure, I can't afford it, and I've been this way for 26 out of 31 years. Will it get better? Check back next year.\</tl;dr> Is this the trauma dumping thread? It's likely that I'm single because: 1. I was ostracized by my peers during much of my formative years which led to never really learning social skills. 2. Parents raised me to be invisible, keep my mouth shut, and appease others AT ALL COSTS. 3. Last relationship ended suddenly, like everything is going great, SUPER into each other for the entire 2 years then a phone call out of nowhere with her saying "I just don't like you anymore" like we weren't talking about how excited we were for our future just 12 hours ago. She was very insistent that she didn't, but I'm pretty sure she cheated on me; when we met to return some stuff she had another dude with her who was staying at her place while in town. TBF we were 18-19, but still it sucked and I had NO family or friends support in the wake of that. It'll be 12 years ago next month that happened, and to this day she was the only woman to ever look at me as more than a distant acquaintance. 4. Been very fat since I was about 4 or 5 years old (again, thanks, mom&dad), though I'm on a good path to fixing this part of myself nowadays (down ~100lbs now), just hope all those years of obesity didn't shave too many years off my life. I should be decently lean by this time next year if I stay locked in. Not looking forward to the loose skin tho... 5. I just don't really have much going for me rn. Hate my job but too chicken to change careers. No time for my hobbies cuz my job requires lots of (unpaid) overtime. Gym time is now a requirement that takes up about 1-2 hours a day (workout+travel). I got a dog that requires lots of time and attention which makes traveling and nights out a logistical challenge (though he's my precious pup and I love him). LOTS of CC debt. Owner of a home I can't really afford worsening the debt. Even if a woman was interested, they see a man who's gone 12 years without so much as a single date and that sets off red flags. Which is understandable, of course, nobody OWES me a date. Bonus: Raised in the US but in an Irish Catholic family. Irish Catholic shame is a particular type of trauma. iykyk. I'm just hoping that losing this weight and building some confidence in my body will give me the confidence to approach people more and hopefully that will snowball into meeting someone.

DBZ or Pokemon most likely. I remember being like 7 or 8 learning how to steal cable so I could get a grainy b&w signal of cartoon network and then secretly learning how to set the VCR to record it since my mom didn't want me watching it.