samuraishinigami

I've been lonely my whole life. Whenever I hang out with my friends I'm the only one still without a girlfriend/boyfriend. Conventions are the only place I can meet a girl with the same interests as me but those only come up a couple times a year. I've had no success so far, It's really hard for me to just go up to someone and try to strike up a conversation and the only times I have it didn't work out. Anyway I keep myself busy with video games. I just spent the last couple of months playing through my favorite game series though and now that I'm done I'm lost again.

I just encountered this with a girl I met at a convention. It's a long story so I'm just going to generalize it. She lives kind of far so we just message each other. I talked to her damn near every day for a year. I became really close to her, closer than I ever have with any other girl in my life. Then one day I decide to just go ahead and ask her if she would be interested in being in a relationship with me. She tells me she has a boyfriend that she's been with for years. She was afraid of telling me because she didn't want to lose me as a friend. It's killing me, ruining my life, but I can't possibly let her go now.