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poisonedrose

poisonedrose

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Not much to say I mess up almost all the time and I have vary few friends but I've met a lot of people sadly that hasn't been the biggest help I've had a decent amount of help growing up 22 and in my head I still see myself as a child but that's easy to do when most of the 40-50 people in my life act like children being youthful and being childish are 2 different things what do we do when everyone is either liers, irresponsible, manipulative, scammers I mean I don't think anyone or anything around here has been a let's turn are life's around with and be serious about it I get that it's not a thing that happens in a day but expressly the fact that if dying wasn't enough to make me change then and there what is exactly or am I even capable anymore do I have to live with not knowing the truth about anything in my life or with the not seeing a way to change for the better with out starting with nothing and nobody to even be able to see any type of hope for myself what about the people that I care about I thought about being more than small town nothings or sitting with nothing until later in life I'm definitely not ready not knowing if there's anything worth working for when work to little never accomplish anything work to hard never have time for anyone or worse of all is having nothing and doing nothing so you are always only with people that don't want to do anything or even try to be anything so you lose hope that it is ever going to change or a positive influence that makes getting up going easier you can be more productive but still for some reason think someone somewhere will be the person or the reason I want to do it all. Maybe that's a lot to say.