Decided to drop out of Paramedic today. Just too much going on. Ill co tinue finishing up my emt-intermediate but paramedic will have to wait till ive picked up all my pieces and life has straightened out. Very emotional day for me
Yea I can't exactly burn her bridge since we need to be on at least decent terms in order to avoid a nasty custody war and a feud between eachother for when he eventually starts visitations when he is older. I'm doin what I can to not see her for now so I can heal more smoother. Really, one big reason this breakup particularly messed me up, was because I never saw it coming. If I saw it coming a mile away and we knew no matter what we did nothing was gonna work out then I probably would be healing smoother but since it went from discussing marriage and vacation this summer, plans for next Halloween, to WHAM done and everything it pretty much shot my nerves up so it may take some work and time to heal but I appreciate everyone's advice! I'll need all the help I can get
Thanks guys. I'll keep all that in mind as I go day by day. Mornings and evenings are the worst. Since the breakup is still pretty new, I'll wake up and she will be on my mind and I'll feel depressed and that "please don't go" kind of feeling in my chest. And at night she will start looping through my mind like a broken record and I have trouble getting to sleep. Im getting a little better about not thinking about it as much but it is still really hard and will take some time getting used to
Really, one big reason this breakup particularly messed me up, was because I never saw it coming. If I saw it coming a mile away and we knew no matter what we did nothing was gonna work out then I probably would be healing smoother but since it went from discussing marriage and vacation this summer, plans for next Halloween, to WHAM done and everything it pretty much shot my nerves up so it may take some work and time to heal but I appreciate everyone's advice! I'll need all the help I can get