Do you know how to show humility and be genuinely vulnerable?

How can I break down the walls, if I don't even know where they are? I am quite open, but emotical I am a closed fortress. If you look inside it is like a pool, colored with different dyes. Mixing and twirling not knowing, where the primal colors are. Only when the winds starts blowing, water will leave the pool. Most will clash against the walls and fall back in the pool. With only some drops falling on the otherside of the wall in the unknown. So which emotions make it past the walls? It is hard to tell! Some are recognizable, as if their drops were lighter. While others are just a mix of colors unknowing what it should represent.

I really put up walls around people and keep people at a safe distance. Unless you're a really close friend or someone I trust wholeheartedly is when those walls slowly crumble down. I'm a really shy person an avoid talking about myself a lot and I find being vulnerable extremely hard. There's a lot of weight I carry in the vastness of my heart that I can't show to everyone. To the person I love, I try, it becomes hard to speak, I end up crying or laughing, I get really embarrassed or gloomy and all of those other mix feelings you don't want to feel with your partner around. But once you do though, it gets easier the next time and so on. Now being humble is particularly easier for me since I do not have the greatest living situation or money. Talent wise, I believe there will always be someone better, and someone better than that person and so on and not everything is a masterpiece, but with practice and effort, it was better than yesterday. You should be grateful for what you have and what you can do to improve. Yeah, you might want to boast a bit, but we are continuously growing and hey, it's a milestone and a little self indulgence isn't so bad either. But personally living a quiet, modest life is better than a loud, busy life. : ) I need to stop myself before this gets too long

I have always been a humble person, don't know how to be any differently. But to be vulnerable has backfired many times for me so I think is not so good after all, I just allow that with very close people that I've known for a long time.

Walls are there for a reason but can be brought down with patience and trust. Humility and vulnerability are good traits but are too often shown too soon or to the wrong people.... or maybe I was thinking of chastity belts.

Personally, I find myself to be very impersonal towards others but I don't find any kind of necessity to open up and show vulnerability to many people. I feel like I'm being myself all the time and I do whatever pleases me and makes me feel comfortable. If showing off my feelings for everyone it's a very uneasy act to do, I won't do it. Though, in my own twisted opinion, those who hide themselves inside as a defense mechanism and is not causing pain to others rather than themselves, need to find people they can share those vulnerabilities and weak spots with because these things can help a person drain and focus on other aspects of their life instead of those that are taking their breath away.