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I think I might consider myself as being asexual, not because I don't like sex but simply because I can't really feel anything. Then of course because of sexual preference since being a tween, most depictions of being with other women in media, always has some form of penetration involved. Maybe I have just become wise beyond my years, but I believe there should be more to a relationship than built on the foundations of sex. The largest sexual organ we have is our own skins. For me, pain has become pleasure. A touch, a caress. A person adapts to feel pleasure.....the right hand and it's euphoria, zone out. I believe that being asexual for anyone, even if they take a break from the instant gratification or prolonged orgasm. If they just stopped for a moment, ceased with the charm and seduction between the sheets. Take a moment and just became aware, a moment to see themselves through their partners eyes, take a moment to feel what the other is feeling. When that is done, the real relationship begins. It would be like the love within the womb shared with your mother before being born. We were aware of our mother and she of us as infants. If it were possible then, it's possible now, and didn't have to have sex with our mom to have such a bond. I don't care what the world thinks of me or wants of me. Only desire another woman to share in my journey to be bound by each others mind and soul. Sustain the body to continue on our shared journey. Might say that I am on the ascetic path of self-discovery and awareness.

It's just a damn sign on a door that designates persons to use that facility. But honestly, male or female needs to use the washroom, does it matter which one, since people visit friends and family, they all use the same toilet. If I have to pee, I don't care about what damn sign is on the door.