bummed out could use someone to talk to.

I'm having some horrible luck and can't seem to catch a break, if anyone is willing to talk about literally anything I would very much appreciate it.

A lot is wrong almost two years ago I lost my husband in a car accident, I'm trying to raise our child alone. Here recently I opened myself up to someone who completely took advantage of me. He wound up doing a bunch of crazy stuff in front of me and my kid. Used me for all I had physically, emotionally, and mentally, I lost my car trying to help support him, not to mention my child saw him wig out numerous times hurting himself and breaking things in our house. I convinced him to get help and he promised he would stop but went back to the same freak outs. I was literally terrified out him and what was going to happen next. And I've struggled with mental illness for as long as I can remember but I pulled myself together when I found out I was pregnant, I got married and finally found all the missing pieces to the puzzle. But when I lost my husband I lost the only real family I ever had. And today I found out that my husband's father is really sick and they don't think he's going to make it through the night. I have no way to get to new York to be there for his mother and say goodbye to him. I have no family to depend on my parents are not very nice people and nobody seems to care.

Same here, I'm always willing to chat when I have some free time. Other interests include movies/film, cameras (including vintage film cameras), archery, bicycling, supernatural and related, books, astrophysics/sci-fi, Doctor Who, lots of other random stuff.

Along with all sorts of other things and sorry I kinda bounced back and forth in my response. I just have a whole lot on my mind and have no one to vent to.

That's fine, feel free to vent. This is a good place for it. You can only do what you can do. There is no use in worrying about things that are out of your hands. Just take stock of what you are able to do and do your best.

Yeah I've been through so much recently, my soul feels tired. I've wanted to give up so many times and the only reason I haven't is because of my beautiful baby boy. He's turning 4 this year, he's growing up way to fast. I like lots of things but mainly being a mom, music, anime/manga. I also loved being a wife to my husband him and my son are the greatest people to ever come into my life. I like to cook and I used to play the Sims a lot.

It's really hard to raise a child on your own. To work and bring in money and everything else. Do you have any local friends?

It's sad that you aren't on good terms with much of your family. My family has helped me a lot, but they are good people.